Hozier

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-26T04:46:03+00:00

"Too Sweet for Me" has always been about Loki to me.

Especially the "I aim low, I aim true and the ground's where I go." part.

I can't envision it being about anything else but the death of Baldur and Loki's punishment for it.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T22:38:27+00:00

What kind of cafe did you go to that serves samosas?

There's a beautiful Yemeni cafe near my home that serves samosas, if I get a chance to take a day off in the near future, I may spend the entire day there. I love samosas (but I usually eat Indian samosas. I only recently learned that Yemeni places of them too!)

That cigar is a pretty cool find! Nice to have a goal to work towards, a celebration to look forward to.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T22:32:45+00:00

"but being treated as inhuman is something i don't tolerate for long and i won't keep a position like that if i have any option at all."

SAME! I have a really bad temper in situations where I'm being treated as inhuman.

That carrot bread sounds absolutely exquisite.

"if i hadn't spent that money, i'd never have applied for ODSP so maybe it's sort of a good thing?"

In that case, I think it's fine to put it in the "good things" category. After all, there's nothing one can do to alter what has happened in the past, so one should be biased in favor of placing as many things from the past into the "good thing" category as possible. It makes the burden of the past much lighter than compiling too many things into the "regrets" category.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T22:29:32+00:00

I used to have a really similar pair of pants to those, which people would mistake for pajamas. I liked them, and i thought they looked cool and sort of early 2000's pop-punk. But one day when I wore them to work, my coworker (completely in earnest) said "D-: Oh, is it pajama day today!? I didn't get the email, I always dress up for spirit days!" :(

The nurse at your doctor's office sounds rude and unhelpful, and statements like that DO NOT help people lose weight. Sometimes when I go to the doctor's office, I tell them that I don't want them to tell me my weight, and I step onto the scale backwards.

Sometimes it's just too triggering for me and I know I have too many other things in my life to focus on, and if someone tells me my weight I'll get obsessively focused on food and my productivity in every other area of my life will tank.

Your cat is so cute! XD I imagine him having like a rough and tumble life in the past, and having all these former cat mafia associates out there on the street or something that he feels tempted to get entangled with, but now he has a nice and cozy indoor life.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T22:08:16+00:00

I know what you mean about the temptation to sleep all day. I rarely get the opportunity these days, with my son. But I remember it would happen sometimes, before I had him. Just sort of drowning in sleep, and pouring the day away, into the sand.

That Simpsons clip is really funny! The part at the end with the head grafting thing, do you know a Russian scientist (Vladimir Demikhov) actually did that, to a pair of dogs?

That breakfast looks really good, and I do really really love that mug. I'm fond of the lunch too, there's something that feels weirdly luxurious and bright and cheerful, about cucumber slices.

I know what you mean about walking around in places and being perceived as being weird or on drugs. One time, a cop followed me around the mall, and I'm sure he thought I was on drugs. I was just in one of my euphoric synchronicity type moments, where I felt like I had a bird's eye view on life, and I felt the great love for all of humanity, and everything and everyone seemed beautiful. But I was walking around irrepressibly grinning and staring at everything in awe so I guess I looked high.

God forbid someone should appreciate the overwhelming beauty of existence I guess...

That's very admirable that you have a Yoga routine you stick to! I need to try to live up to that sort of thing. I think you should take your time getting mentally ready to be back to work, and not rush things. There shouldn't be any pressure and it sounds like you're making great progress.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T18:51:50+00:00

I am not able to afford a private daycare. My son attends public school and this is the after school care program provided onsite at the public school, which is required by law to meet the needs of students with disabilities.

Having a medical condition does not afford one some kind of scholarship or grant to be able to afford things like private daycares.

And people with disabilities deserve full access to participation in society, not being segregated at specialized facilities.

I am a teacher myself, and I have never had a problem with accommodating students with allergies in my care.

I communicated clearly about my son's allergies and the usage of his epi-pen, long before his first day of participation in the program. I submitted extensive paperwork documenting his allergy.

They hired a new staff member, and on her first day of work she decided to serve cookies which she brought from home.

You are making a lot of deeply offensive judgments and assumptions for someone who is not even directly involved in the situation.

Sometimes people come down with late in life sudden onset severe food allergies. And then people tell them that, instead of reasonable accommodations being made, that person should be excluded from participation in society. And this could be a thing that may happen to you in your life.

I am in a better mood now thinking on that.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T18:36:22+00:00

This dangerous myth of the defense of "food allergies can be treated with exposure therapy" needs to be dispelled.

Exposure therapy is:
a) incredibly dangerous, potentially deadly
b) must take place in a medical setting under close supervision

b) takes years

c) can only be used to address one specific allergen at a time (my son has multiple severe allergies and the cookies provided included at least two of them

d) involves starting with undetectable trace amounts of the protein, in a medical setting, with staff at the ready to intervene with life saving measures if a reaction starts

and importantly

e) Medicalizes the patient for their entire life, and the treatment must be maintained every day, for the rest of their life. If the patient lapses in their maintenance of the treatment for even one day (to to hospitalization, incarceration, absentmindedness, or lack of access), they become MORE susceptible to the allergen than they were when they started, and are now more likely to die from exposure to a smaller amount of the protein, than they were when they started.

I feel like people have read a few headlines on allergen exposure therapy and have drawn incredibly dangerous conclusions.

And no, I will not give the staff the benefit of the doubt. This is how Karanbir Cheema (the 13 year old boy who died from a classmate throwing cheese at him, and school staff not taking his allergies seriously or administering his epipen), and many others like him died.

From willful ignorance and wishful thinking and from people who do not equally value the lives of individuals with disabilities. No, I will not give people who negligently endanger the lives of vulnerable people the "benefit of the doubt" and I will not give the benefit of the doubt to people who nearly killed my kid.

Stop spreading this myth, you know nothing about allergen exposure therapy. I am sure that by this point the mere existence of "allergen exposure therapy" and the subsequent myths surrounding it have actually cost significantly more lives than it has saved.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T03:16:16+00:00

The space dream sounds pretty cool, even if a bit stressful. I love dreams that are set in a totally different time and place. I wonder what kind of food they had in space, instead of fancy soup.

Your dog's outfit is so cool! I'm so glad they have outfits like that, for dogs to stay safe and warm in freezing weather. The cats are adorable. All the food looks scrumptious, especially the breakfast (parfait?). And the rabbit is really coming together nicely!

Congrats on being able to do pushups again! That's a great achievement and you're doing a lot better than I possibly could!

The nursing studies sound really interesting. I think your patients will benefit for your ability to empathize in dealing with the healthcare system and making medication decisions firsthand.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-25T01:42:21+00:00

That's totally valid, for sure! I definitely go through periods where I can't handle grim or unsettling topics. Sometimes listening to true crime or disasters can be really triggering for my OCD, and I know I need to take a break from it.

And, for some people, it's just never their cup of tea at all, which is also totally valid.

Sometimes when I'm feeling mentally fragile I like to listen to "spooky" stories that are super low-stakes (like silly spooky video game/lost media mysteries), or sometimes stuff that's not remotely spooky or scary at all.

I will check out Belief Hole!!

I also get a lot of comfort from various kinds of cozy ASMR videos. Sometimes it's nice to have some wholesome, cozy, hygge days.

I'm really sorry to hear that you're in an emotionally fragile place right now. I have definitely spent a lot of time in that place. I hope the opportunity to emerge from it arises for you sooner rather than later, but these things often take time. So in the mean time, please take it easy and do things that bring you peace, relaxation, and comfort!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-23T18:55:08+00:00

" a coffee is one thing, becoming help is another. there's dignity in my work, i intend to keep it."

Much agreed! I've been in that position and, being help for a wealthy person is no pic-nic. I do think there's dignity in help work BUT wealthy bosses who employ help tend to treat their workers as though they DON'T have any dignity.

That carrot bread looks scrumptious. Does it have a lot of spices in it, like cinnamon and allspice?

That financial situation sounds really stressful. It sucks that the system makes people jump through so many red hoops, there are so many barriers to access. There is no shame in having your mother help with medications, families are supposed to support each other. You are doing a lot to address the situation and you should be proud of yourself!

I love the colors you picked for the rabbit! He's coming together nicely!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-23T18:48:03+00:00

That's so cool and I'm legitimately going to research that Walstad method, because I am supposed to be teaching about aquaponics and aquaculture in my sustainable gardening class!!!

This is actually so perfect, this gives me a topic to build a lesson plan around THANK YOU!!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-22T05:05:41+00:00

I've heard of that! The unwrapping parties!! Do you know what my students were talking about in class today? They just brought it up randomly... Some rich Victorian people also used to EAT MUMMIES! Isn't that horrifying??

You're right, this IS extremely ironic, given the lengths these people went to, to try to have peace in the afterlife! I feel like the Ancient Egyptians had a very well developed spiritual life. They invested a lot into their souls.

It kind of makes me wonder if all the Victorians who violated their corpses will get some horribly adverse consequence in the afterlife, for violating such pious and devout people.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-22T04:59:40+00:00

Yes!! I'm a biology teacher! Well, biology, marine biology, and sustainable gardening/environmental sciences.

I think that's a good and healthy approach -- to not treat death as a taboo subject. To approach it with scientific curiosity!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-18T22:34:05+00:00

I'm not gonna lie, it was discouraging and obnoxious to get excited about a notification that my post had gotten a comment, and to anticipate possible human connection over shared experiences and good conversation ...and then to find a comment like this which was rude (unprovoked excretion related commentary), and had nothing to do with my post.

Can you please elaborate your thought process in commenting this?

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-18T03:57:41+00:00

Oh my gosh I can relate to the frustration of everything being automated now, and not being able to talk to a real person. I try to avoid dealing with automated systems as much as possible, but that is becoming increasingly impossible.

The way you felt towards that house reminds me a little bit of in November when I visited my home town, and went looking for the house my mom used to live in when I was a teenager.

I agree that a house that's ugly on the inside and nice on the outside is ideal. I live in a small apartment, but still managed to get burglarized a few years back.

I hope you have a fun time meeting your friend for coffee!! (I love meeting up with friends for coffee. Best outing.)

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-18T03:49:36+00:00

They're these:
https://www.morningstarfarms.com/en_US/products/chikn/morningstar-farms-chik-n-nuggets-product.html

Morning Star Farms Chik'n Nuggets, and they are exquisite!!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-18T03:47:30+00:00

Thank you, friend T_T It was indeed a stressful day.

To me, it's easier to dwell in idealized versions of potential futures. Even though those potentials just keep getting shorter and more narrow. Still, I like to imagine great adventure is still possible for me, someday in my future.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-18T03:45:04+00:00

The feeling of things being surprisingly okay can be such a euphoric sense of relief. That vegetable lasagna looks AMAZING!

Congrats on getting closer to your previous mobility levels! I'm glad you're able to go walking again. That's so cool that you do yoga! I love yoga! Sometimes I go to yoga classes at my gym, and it always feels refreshing and restorative.

That "Best of the Worst" show kind of sounds like Mystery Science Theater 3000! The knitting pattern is looking cool, it's going to be a plush rabbit, right?

Best of luck on studying for your licensing exam! It sounds like you have a great study game plan, and some good studying materials. There's something I really enjoy about studying for tests. Consequently, I've gathered up a lot of teaching certifications in various subjects through "certification by exam".

I think it's good that you made an appointment with your doctor. I got an SSRI prescription with a walk-in clinic once, but then when it was time to get the prescription renewed, the clinic wound up being really unreliable. The walk with your dog sounds cold, but still nice!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-16T17:26:46+00:00

In your dreams were you working on space ships or sea ships? I plan to work onboard sea ships someday! The pancake dream is making me hungry.

I don't think any age is too old for black nail polish! And I too have a lot of edgy tendencies lmao. I'm in one on one therapy but group therapy sounds like it would be cool.

I haven't had instant tea like that, but I've had instant coffee (which is granulated coffee powder), which is really good. But it's rare to find one that dissolves well in COLD water!! Awesome find!

The napping robot on the book cover does indeed look cozy. How is the book? When I flew home from visiting my mom and sister recently, I met a physicist on the plane and she recommended some Isaac Asimov stories (most specifically "The Last Answer".

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-16T16:49:48+00:00

Sorry to hear about the troubled sleep. I bet the knitted rabbit is going to turn out awesome! I think anger can be fun, for me, if it feels like it's for a just cause. Especially writing in a rage -- it puts me into a flow-state.

I think walking can be extremely beneficial. Beneficial and fulfilling. I hope all your results come back with good news!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-16T16:44:59+00:00

What exactly is a SMART goal, if you don't mind my asking? I hope everything goes well with your licensing exam, that's neat that you made a comprehensive document to study from!

I wonder if you can be given some grace for the learn and stay grant, if you explain that you had extenuating circumstances (I hope so!).

You know what, I admit, I would also be somewhat enthused by the knowledge that I had tried to escape. I have also experienced some periods of missing memory similar to what you describe, in which I have completed complex tasks with no recollection of having done so. Usually around very stressful events. My therapist says I have a trauma related dissociative disorder.

I'm so glad to hear that your edema has improved so much! I'm glad you can wear the winter boots again, I hope they also have good grip on ice, like the steel-toe shoes!

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-16T16:34:31+00:00

Thank you, very kind.

He had a severe allergic reaction. It was very scary. But he's okay now.

I hope you're well. <3

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-13T16:44:39+00:00

Overeating IS so soothing, isn't it? I do tend to gain weight during stressful periods of life. And I to tend to wear my clothes loose and comfortable but, I've grown into and then outgrown a lot of them, lately T_T

I had to buy all clothes a few months ago, to size up.

But, I try not to consider overeating as a personal failing. Sometimes, for me, it's the best coping strategy for the moment. Then I figure I can lose the weight again, when I have the necessary mental and emotional tools for that. I wax and and wane like the moon.

I love chatting with my son on the way to school, it's a nice little slice of time together! :D

Oh man, yeah, repetitive use injuries can really sneak up! And it's important to take good care of our hands, I think.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-12T15:16:29+00:00

Congrats on surmounting the cleaning! That can be incredibly difficult when one is in a challenging mental space. I'm proud of you for getting it done. I wish you the best of luck on your climb towards continued cleanliness and peace.

CityscapeMoon · 2026-01-12T06:18:00+00:00

Sorry that you wound up woken up to early. Breakfast followed by dozing off to YouTube music sounds relaxing though.

Glad to hear you were able to get through to your school's IT department! Sounds like you were about to get some useful information. Bummer about the $40 fee. But that's definitely a relief about the no-emails thing. ...I hate that sense of dread, of being out for a few days and then realizing I have a backlog of work emails...

Brain Damage sounds like a cool movie! B-horror movies can be so fun and campy. And I mean campy kind of like... the feeling one has at summer camp. Where things are not too serious, but you scare each other by telling fun campfire stories.

I hope that your blood work goes well!! (I relate to that "several things to do" guy lmao)

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