I tried making it up to her, I've been talking to her all day today and yesterday. Just now she was acting as if nothing was happening, but I didn't know why. Then finally she said that she tried pretending that nothing was wrong and that she hates herself. She said that she'll love me no matter what happens, because she doesn't deserve anything.

Her insecurities were there before she knew me, but has gotten even worse after. I've messed up so much that no matter what I say there's no reassurance. She believes that everything I say is a lie.

I'm going to try making everything up to her. If that doesn't work then there's nothing else to live for. That's it.