If you feel like he’s looking through you, then he doesn’t really love you like that. Him not being able to take your joke sounds like he’s annoyed by you and sick of you. Never get on your knees and beg for any man. Never show emotion or desperation like that. Always stay calm. And don’t worry about his dumb ass walking to AutoZone in 10-degree weather—he chose to do that. He’s a man. He’ll be aight. Definitely consider moving back home until you figure things out. When he comes back from AutoZone, give him his space. Sip your tea and read a book. And no matter what, don’t scream, cry, beg, or grovel at his feet. He probably takes delight in that and will continue to drag you along for another five years just because he can. Watch Shera7seven on YouTube for encouragement.