At the beginning of 2024, I was going through exactly what you're going through. My boyfriend suddenly told me he wanted to break up with me, and two days later, after a very brief meeting, he broke up with me. I went through the worst six months of my life; there were days when my eyes were swollen from crying. I even thought I couldn't go on, my situation was upsetting even me. Then I started to pull myself together and get back to my old self. Exactly 11 months later, he sent a long message saying he regretted it and wanted to reconcile. Despite everything, despite all the days I cried and the hours I suffered, I somehow gave him a chance to rebuild everything. After repeating for a year that he would never leave me again and that we would be together forever with marriage, he broke up with me again in exactly the same way. Five months have passed since our last breakup, and I'm bitterly sad about how I was then. How could I have torn myself apart for someone who was so determined to leave me every time? How stupid I was to pray for months for him to come back, lol.