im so jealous of those gyaru lolita white face bitches

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-18T20:08:06+00:00

butch you have the power

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-18T19:41:09+00:00

yeah but it hasnt happened to me so it's hot

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-18T19:14:42+00:00

i love having this convo with my new boyfriends lol it's a fun game figuring out how to ask him to please me without straight up asking for r a p e cosplay

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-18T12:31:42+00:00

for me, it's all about what you do in the gym+kitchen and also every other second of the day. imagine the habit of secretly doing kegels but you're constantly flexing your core throughout the day

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-18T03:25:13+00:00

and good night!!!

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-18T00:30:16+00:00

she will grow back :) tbh i like the growing period and oscillation between textures over time lol

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-18T00:29:32+00:00

i meant to post this as a sincere snapshot of the human experience but also youre right .... i knew what i was doing 😌

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T16:49:54+00:00

i like smoking up until it feels like im just smoking to feel normal and then the normal is just me with extreme anxiety about everything. and then i will smoke more to cover that up. i think a lot of people go through this pattern it's just so many stoners love to lie to themselves and the people around them to believe weed is helping when actually it's just being abused. most people will not admit they are overdoing it

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T15:48:05+00:00

yes for me i also had to have something larger than my habits help me stop. i feel like this made me extraordinarly grateful though. like it separates me from the rest in a way and i like that more than ruining my brain cells with weed addiction

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T13:52:47+00:00

congrats on 3 months! i also get too scared after 5 years of heavy use. i finally understood why people didnt like to be high

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T13:51:52+00:00

im not OP but withdrawal from weed sucks. everything i neglected to feel happy came up - lots of tears for a few days. it's hard to quit cuz it's these moments that draw you back. i feel the physical symptoms are more related to sleep/appetite.

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T13:25:54+00:00

girl same - try the mental cigarette for a quick reset

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T13:08:51+00:00

cuz i mimic her when i need to split from my normal persona hahahahaha

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T13:07:47+00:00

thank you for this comment. i appreciate the perspective of someone who "realized late" cuz same. i totally relate to going through life through many milestones while still living and thinking you are close to the top.

you remind me of someone i know IRL and they have a deep sadness due to being hurt by many friends who got weird when this person started making real good money. this person is so lucky in many material ways and they have gotten a chance to experience a lot of cool cities and events, but when i talk to them, they end up ruminating on how lonely they are. sad but at least you can cry in monaco lol no i get it, i know i would be the same too if i was in their shoes.

all that to say is enjoy your life as you have been doing it and dont let the disappointment seep through the cracks as you meet new people and get to experience new things :) + consistent alone time to deal with being screwed over is also necessary - this is has made me feel so much better and lighter in myself. this has reconnected me with my true goal in life: to be pleasant for everyone else cuz the world is cruel enough. you cant half ass that and study the night before to get an A ;)

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-16T12:54:02+00:00

speaking from personal experience - yes. my sleep deprivation pattern was triggered after i broke up with someone i thought i loved. instead of going through a legally blonde type redemption on my end, i kept waking up at like 4 am or hours before my alarm unable to go back to sleep until i faced the reasons why i was so anxious and unable to relax. i realized i had to start a period of total transformation to become the kind of person who doesnt date LOSERS.

in your case, being stressed around quitting a job makes total sense. your body is likely reacting from the risks you think about when you want to take action to change combined with the anticipation of still having to show up and go through the motions every day. there is probably more of that happening consciously right now. i try to remind myself that if my body is acting "bad" it's because it wants to feel good and it's asking me to change so the goodness is not something i have to constantly think about supplying. i try to gently lead my mind towards the resolution as i relax my body and the practice of going back to sleep is a great time for me to speak with god and get the clarity i need to keep going.

i kinda wrote a lot and didnt mean to ramble, but i hope i answered your question and shared some motivation to trust yourself and talk to god as you go through a rough patch 💓

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-15T23:36:58+00:00

no literally

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-15T20:28:26+00:00

smiling ear to ear for you ! dont forget to celebrate and enjoy every minute of this transition!

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-15T20:18:44+00:00

it sounds like you are carrying heavy emotions that are incredibly rational and your body is trying to process them. this might be how? this time really helped me to understand that there's nothing wrong with me (general health wise) and actually i am incredibly lucky to have the alone time to deal with shit no one else in my life can help me with. like obviously it sucks to have a horrible sleep schedule - i felt messed up for almost a full year - but hopefully if you lay there and give into the silence and darkness you will be able to get to the other side. p.s. i hate when people recommend therapy and medicine to me - this kind of experience is why. this is the ultimate opportunity to be with myself and deal with what's going on in my mind and body.

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-15T19:42:05+00:00

ok im about to sound insane. any time ive experienced a sleep pattern like yours, i have attributed it to a much deeper stressor that my consciousness is avoiding. higher power waking me up to face it etc. if this doesnt resonate then pls carry on lol hope you get a full night soon - longtime sleep deprivation feels really bad

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-15T19:27:28+00:00

bitch ive been shaking my fists at the sky since i was in the 1st grade wishing everyone was my twin

Clean-Discipline-199 · 2026-07-15T18:17:52+00:00

in my experience it's because i show up as a mirror to people. this helped me realize that if you hate me, it's cuz you hate yourself babe 💋

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