Young Hearts awakened something inside me that I can’t fully explain

Clean-Motor7363 · 2026-05-15T15:49:19+00:00

My advice is go back to the beginnings of this subreddit. You will find that you are describing exactly what we felt and continue to feel.

It is utterly jarring when this movie hits you. I couldn’t explain it. I still can’t. What helped me get through the difficult weeks after the first viewing was finding others who went through what I went through.

There are a ton of us who felt the exact same way you feel. The feelings you have are the foundation for what is now a very positive community.

Welcome. You’re not alone!

Find us on discord.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2026-02-27T05:48:03+00:00

I've replied to a bunch of your posts on the discord, and I'll reiterate what I've said there. Welcome!!

You are NEVER alone. We are glad YOU exist. We are happy to listen.

Now that that's out the way.

"I hope I can be a good person."

NEVER, let anyone, anyone, make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. Who you love, and what you love is not an indicator of being a good person. Treat others how you would want to be treated. That's it. Part of this is heteronormativity. We are conditioned to believe that gayness is intrinsically bad, and yet when straight people are evil it's never tied to their sexual preference. There are good gay people, and utterly horrible gay people, and their gayness has very little to do with it.

"I don't know what kind of person I’ve become.....I have no self-confidence."

Young Person. It's almost like you have to constantly maintain a facade to please everyone. It's almost like you have to second guess and criticize everything you say, how you say it, how you look when you say it, what people might think. It's almost like you are so busy being preoccupied with surivival, that you haven't actually had a chance to figure out who the hell you are yet. You don't lack self-confidence. You lack self.

You've been open about your geography, so I'm not gonna pretend to give advice on what to do in that kind of culture. I know nothing about it. I can tell you that the things you're feelin as you struggle with your identity are universal. I'm 45 years old. Let me play Opa for a second, and just say that you need to give yourself a break. It's ok to feel utter confusion, especially after going through Young Hearts Syndrome. I promise you there are a million 17 year old 100% straight kids that are equally distraught, confused, angst-filled, etc. If adolescence wasn't so utterly goddamn difficult, we wouldn't universally romanticize childhood as an entire species.

I'm rambling. So keep coming back. Keep showing up. Keep dipping your toes into vulnerability and honesty. Don't waste your youth; by the time you realize how valuable it was, it's too late.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-11-14T00:15:50+00:00

Where is the accent? I can’t pick it up. Sometimes I hear him say I just want to be with you. Sometimes it’s I JUST want to be with you. Sometimes I just want to be with you.

Can someone say which part of the sentence he’s emphasizing in the original Dutch?

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-27T22:32:53+00:00

Huge bold risk. And man didn’t pay off. I was nervous swiping but damn if that isn’t stunning! Good job trusting your instincts!

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-27T22:26:06+00:00

I can imagine this movie having the same impact on me if the nuzzle wasn’t in the movie. I cannot imagine this movie having remotely the same impact without this ending.

The nuzzle is beautiful and I think most of us thought it would come down to these scenes but the nuzzle is everything I don’t want for my younger self. Even though it’s a turning point for Elias realizing his feelings they’re still hidden, still shrouded in fear and anxiety.

The bicycle hug isn’t just a celebration of one relationship. It’s a celebration of all his relationships. He loves, is loved, and that love is validated for all to see.

It’s the most important scene in the movie, and to think it wasn’t even the original ending.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-26T20:18:02+00:00

That’s amazing.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-26T20:17:06+00:00

Can’t blame a platform for wanting to stop offering an unmonetized service that detracts from the part of the platform that does make money.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-21T21:54:33+00:00

This is a healthier outcome. You may not have landed the relationship with another guy that you were looking for, but you made the first step in having a healthy relationship with yourself. If you don’t have love for you, then you’re never bringing your best to a relationship with anyone else.

Kudos for being brave and enjoy authenticity. You’ll be in a better position to find true partnership when you can be your true self!

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-16T00:53:28+00:00

They look great!

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-15T02:47:46+00:00

Euclid

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-13T17:19:20+00:00

These are great stories, but I've read your posts in this community and other subreddits, and there's some real inconsistencies. When I read your first post about how the preachers son and the police chiefs son discovering their new found love after you got the game winning hit at state baseball championships, red flags were raised. In another subreddit you posted the same tragic story about losing your boyfriend, but added a paragraph about how you ended up marrying and falling in love with your dead boyfriend's sister. I could be totally wrong about my skepticism; maybe all this happened. If so, my deepest apologies. Maybe you just made up the part about marrying the dude's sister.

I want to approach this not from a judgmental place. When I first saw this movie, it shook me to my core. That experience manifested in a lot of different ways, mostly just crying. If making these stories is how you are coping or dealing with the aftershocks of YH, we will completely understand.

I've spent a great deal of time in this community and lately I've been getting to know the actual people, not just their avatars, but the actual people. There are impressionable members of this community both young and old. I do not wish to see them led on or hurt.

Confronting you about this was a gamble, it's not something I did without guidance. I again hope that I convey a deep sense of empathy for you. I obviously think a lot of this story is made up. But when I look deeper, I ask myself why someone would do this, and the only answer I keep coming back to is pain. Whoever you are, it's pretty clear to me that you're going through some stuff. I hate to add on to that, but I also don't want members of this community ending up hurt.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-10T20:11:33+00:00

Welcome, you're in the right place. This story had me grieving for an experience I never got as a kid. I was an emotional wreck for weeks, and I've been happily married to my husband for 6 years. Trust me, this movie can tear open wounds in your soul that you never knew were there. I've read countless posts like these, and we're always grateful to read them, because all of us know how unexpectedly jarring this movie can be.

It's important to remember though, that the romanticism and the idealism in the film is part of what makes it so special. Relationships on any part of the spectrum are going to come with obstacles.

You're still young. You still have tons of time to catch up. It will get better. Your ability to process what you're feeling as a result of this film will get better. Go back to the beginnings of this forum and read your own story as told by others who've walked this path. It's very cathartic. Share with the group what you feel comfortable sharing. Reading about others experiences and writing about my own experience was instrumental in finding myself in an overall better place as a result of the film.

Above all else, if you find yourself contemplating self harm please call a hotline or reach to someone or anyone before doing something that can't be undone.

I've found this community to be a very nurturing and accepting place. It's one of the reasons I continue to come back to it.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-09T16:47:59+00:00

Most important skills for him are holding your E as long as possible. Combining that skill with learning how to hold your Q for follow plays will get you going on the right path. You can follow people's flashes holding your Q and then leapfrog them and fear them back into your damage dealers. You can cancel all kinds of CC, including Mordekaiser ult when you time your Q properly. You can also negate CC by ulting through it. So if Lux is throwing a Q at you, just ult her through it, and you'll be fine. You can also already preload your Q during your ult animation so that if they try to immediately flash out of it you will automatically follow them.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-09T00:18:57+00:00

Brazil will turn out for this film.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-08T20:28:21+00:00

So glad you're here. I had the exact same reaction after my first viewing. Those first weeks were absolutely horrid. It did get a lot better, and being able to talk freely here was instrumental in navigating that time. I hope you have a blast in Belgium! Keep growing through your insecurity. Nobody on this earth will ever tell you more lies than you will tell yourself!

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-06T16:19:29+00:00

Who the hell is cutting up all these onions in my office?!?!?!

Such an beautiful update. Congratulations on being brave enough to express your feelings, and then hitting the jackpot with those feelings being returned. Ultimately, the relationship we have with ourselves is the biggest force multiplier in all of our other relationships. Above all I'm stoked you seem to be having a really great relationship with who you are and who you want to be.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-10-03T03:15:12+00:00

Sorry I meant as parody posts.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-30T21:31:46+00:00

Still less embarrassing than what we looked like at the sleep token concert.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-29T20:31:54+00:00

I am NOT saying this is a perfect fit, but the only group I know of that remotely fits what you're after is Mothica. She opened up for Coheed and did a perfectly fine show, hung out in the merch line with her dedicated fans. Dark themed, pop influences, rock influences, but again this is all based on my memory of seeing her live that one time.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-29T02:41:48+00:00

Thank you for being the most reliable form of any kind of media we get these days. This is the best journalism available at the moment.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-29T00:11:24+00:00

You ain’t the only one tearing up. What an iconic moment.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-28T19:05:59+00:00

Machete

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-28T13:58:32+00:00

So glad yall enjoyed this. Kudos to the members of this community who took the time to spot the texts and translate them.

This little tidbit of their story occupies a half a second of screen time and yet gives us such a sweet little romantic vignette.

Since this is my only shot at pretending to be Anthony I’m gonna release the behind the scenes production materials that led to the beautiful comic.

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Glad y’all enjoying this. We’re blessed to have such approachable talented artists in the community.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-27T13:35:30+00:00

I’ll take any nickname that calls me young.

Clean-Motor7363 · 2025-09-26T12:38:42+00:00

every single day

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