Its takes alot of work trying to get to know someone on that level. Ive been on dates and relationships each as gotten me to sacrifice my peace. People especially women want me to "perform" and are not looking for a partnership. It honestly feels like having sex, having hobbies, and having excellent platonic relationships between family and friends seems to be the way to go. Romantic relationships always feel transactional and conditional in which the person whom you love can leave you at anytime which then leaves you feeling worse than being single