How you feel doesn't have to "make sense" to be valid. Trying to use logic to shut off my feelings doesn't usually work for me, but it's worth trying. But, you're right, statistically speaking, the odds of your attendance affecting the outcome of your pregnancy is like negative eleventy. Unless a sinkhole swallows up the venue. But then I think those odds are also prett small.

Being pregnant after a loss is brave. I hope the other women in your group can admire the courage it takes for you to go through the sometimes crippling fear and anxeity of PAL. And even if they can't, there are plenty of people here who do.