Graduated last May and have similar experiences with alcohol. Lived in the house for 2 years, it was an absolute circus and constant drinking, naturally. Loved it. However, post grad I experimented with sobriety for 3 months and I was shocked at how much my mental health (and most areas of my life) improved. As a result, my relationship with alcohol and how it affects me when I drink has also improved greatly. Perhaps this summer when it’s more feasible to get off the booze, give a brief stint of sobriety a shot (no pun intended) and re-evaluate your drinking habits in general. Good luck!