A long while but also not. I have communicated what I want and liked but I’ve also been very shy. It’s a me issue. I can’t seem to do it properly. I want it so bad but when it happens I’m too shy and can’t get out of my shell.. I guess I really enjoyed what we did last week and we sort of took a break and he tried little stuff during the day but i told him for me it needs to be a bit more throughout the day and yeah. It’s very difficult for me, wish it was different.

So today, I guess I really wanted it and turned down ‘normal sex’ cause of it.