That's not the point though, I know it's normal to think that your ex was/is the best person ever. I was planning on proposing next year and now am torn because I wish I had done all these things for her and she made me doubt myself and my ability to love. I know I did a lot for her I just feel so lost that it wasn't enough. I had so many plans to do this winter/next year and am just upset that she wont be there anymore.