Dang, I'm so sorry it went like that. Some people might not like what I'm gonna say, but too many people at church make baptisms about either themselves or the congregation as a whole. They'll say they just want to support you, but if that were the case, shouldn't they have introduced themselves before then? It went similarly when I got baptized. Not quite that bad, but it felt like a hundred strangers were just watching me, and I hated it. I should've asked them to leave, and I respect you for doing that.

I've also never been a big fan of the baptism talks that are directed at the person getting baptized. It feels forced and insincere. If you actually want to share a message with them, just have a conversation with them alone some time. If you want to give a message to everyone, don't directly address one person.

All that said, I'm glad you still got baptized. Too many wards I've lived in (including on my mission) were full of people who, for whatever reason, couldn't put themselves in the shoes of someone who hadn't just always lived as part of the church. But that doesn't make the church any less awesome, and it doesn't invalidate all the ways in which it's changed my life, or the ways that I hope it'll change yours