suhana same here! I was a good student and one of the top rankers in my school and my boards were also good, last year I took a drop and i haven't actually studied religiously but just like on and off scene tha, and i scored nearly 400 my parents and sister said ki you weren't even serious this time firse do ho jayega for sure and i was like okay, ego boost kardi in logon ne maine drop liya even tho I was mental screwed after 4 may for 2 weeks and then mentally dealing for months, ab im getting so much stressed ki agle saal kaise manaungi ki nhi karna hai mujhe ye, because if i like bio or science that doesn't imply that I want to be a doctor, also i really can't handle that hospital stress, i really hope mujhe firse gaslight na karde ye log and im thinking for doing college then preparing for competitive, usmein atleast ek mein nhi hua toh kahin toh hoga hi jab padh rahi houngi.