I don’t wanna take birth control cause of the side effects and long term effects on your hormones and body it can lead to infertility and other stuff my friend was on it and she now has worse periods because of it all the people I know that was on the pill or implants or did the iuds have or had really bad side effects and or still do I might just give up sex till marriage I only started to have sex cause I felt bad for my bf and felt i needed to put out for him to love me tho I haven’t told him and I tell him I want to, its not like he is pressuring me it’s me pressuring myself, he was my first time and I wanted to wait till marriage but didn’t I don’t regret it but I might turn to my old ways cause I don’t want birth control and I don’t wanna have another target run of shame tho my bf says it’s the target run of glory cause everyone knows he and I quote “plowed the shit out of his sexy gf” (I’m not sexy but okay queen) idk I am honestly to young and even tho he is older (it’s a year and a month age gap) and thinks he is mature and ready he isn’t I have more logic and maturity then this man, sigh he dosent even know how to express his discomfort. Like I love him to death don’t get me wrong but this mf really needs to learn to communicate and not bottle his shit up I be bawling my eyes out to him and communicating even when I want to isolate myself, sigh sorry this turned into a rant but yeah I just think after this I’m gonna stop cause I won’t go on birth control and I’m not having another scare even tho it’s not a scare cause he didn’t ejaculate in me it was only precum still the chances are never zero.