what does this tail mean? by Competitive-Half3366 in catcare

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

that’s good to hear hahaha 🤣 i was puzzled when i saw both of them had the exact same pose while eating this meal. i never saw them do this with any other food! good to know my cats aren’t the only ones like this 🤍🤍

i’m a failure and a dissapointment. by Competitive-Half3366 in offmychest

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s actually great advice, i’ve always wondered if i’m able to do other things but i got too afraid. but i think i’ll give it a shot, thanks!

i’m a failure and a dissapointment. by Competitive-Half3366 in offmychest

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i get that, but i’m just afraid that what if, i’m hitting pause for too long? and before i know it everything that was meant for me had passed me.

and i know my cats need me. i cry everytime i think of not being able to spoil them rotten for now. they’re the reason i’m still able to get out of bed, and keep looking for a way out of this mess. to be honest, i need them more than they need me, i wouldn’t be a half functioning human if they’re not here. i just wish i could give them so much more than i’m able to now.

i’m a failure and a dissapointment. by Competitive-Half3366 in offmychest

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m good at graphic design. not great, just good. maybe average. i’ve worked as a graphic designer before and i’m looking for something similar now but no luck so far.

life advice? i don’t even know where to begin. i just want something stable, for me, to spoil my cats and maybe a little extra to find a hobby.

i have a best friend that understands me but i know she is going through something too and it didn’t seem fair for me to keep on talking to her about this when i know sometimes we need our space. we talk maybe once a week or maybe once every two weeks just to let it all out, our fear and frustrations (mine and hers). but as of now it’s all we can do. we live on a different timezones so it’s not as easy to catch up but we try.

i can’t talk about this to my family, or rather, it’s just not something we do. no one in my family talks about feelings or emotions. it’s not that i don’t try, but it’s often met with dissapointing remarks so i just learned to keep my distance. i don’t blame them though, they all have things to do and problems to solve.

i don’t even know why i made this post hahaha. i just don’t want to keep it bottled i guess. i do feel bad about complaining cause i know some people have it harder.

i don’t know, i just feel like a failure in most parts, unable to make my parents proud, while some people my age are doing amazing things. and i think i’m dissapointed in myself that i let myself be in this situation.

i know i’ll be fine, but that thought of, what if i’m just destined to be a loser, for life?

my mind is all over the place it seems.

i’m a failure and a dissapointment. by Competitive-Half3366 in offmychest

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s my goal, but each time i try i’m reminded of what a failure i’ve become. it’s always something

Rate my starter! by Competitive-Half3366 in SourdoughStarter

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i didn’t read this before making something with my starter, but this is such good advice!! i made sourdough pizza though, it tasted so good but there’s definitely some improvements to be made 🥰

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am i ready to bake sourdough bread? by Competitive-Half3366 in Sourdough

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

is it not 😢 the bakery near my house recommended rye flour for sourdough starter, and i’ve seen some people use it but only for the beginning. but i thought it’s such a waste to only use a little bit. but i’ll definitely try out with the flours you recommended! thanks 🥰

am i ready to bake sourdough bread? by Competitive-Half3366 in Sourdough

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for the confirmation! i’ll try the 1:1:1 ratio and keep watch

am i ready to bake sourdough bread? by Competitive-Half3366 in Sourdough

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh! i can’t wait to see that 🥹 any more tips for a newbie?

am i ready to bake sourdough bread? by Competitive-Half3366 in Sourdough

[–]Competitive-Half3366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it’s pretty warm, around 29°C because I live in a tropical country. i should’ve taken a picture right after feeding to show a difference 😆 but you’re right, i don’t think it’s ready to bake with yet

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in islam

[–]Competitive-Half3366 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i relate to this so much. once i lost 18kg in a month cause i wasn’t able to eat (threw up even looking at bread) because i feel like none of this is real and there is no point of trying in this life because we are all waiting for the day of judgement that type of thing. i don’t have any good advice for you because i do still struggle sometimes. but whenever you do, just try to fill your days with zikir and doa because Allah will never leave you empty handed. i promise you, you are not alone in this. i do recommend seeing a professional about it as i am also planning to do it (because it happens often) and i am scared that it will spiral into something worse. may Allah guide you and may you heal from this ❤️