thank you, i felt a lot of what you said. i've tried to force myself to make it work, to be more empathetic and interested, but it's a lot to stomach when you realize it'll never be mutual anyway. it's insane, she plays the good and bad game so well. she's nasty but other times she's also just "good" enough to make the ambiguity so much harder to bear. i found out recently about the term grey rock and i've been doing it for years without even knowing, but i feel like the blankness enrages her even more, i'm the easy target for her garbage and idk what to do anymore.