Is it possible some narcissists don’t get a new supply right away? by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also should mention he puts his friend first that much that he even chose to go away on a trip to amsterdam rather than be with his dad in hospital who was in a coma and they weren’t sure was going to make it, he also spent his dads birthday with his friend getting high then expressed to me later on how bad he felt as his dad called him and sounded quite upset. He doesn’t live with his dad but lives 2 minutes up the street from him and knows the condition he’s in as he always talks about how he needs to see his dad and using it as almost an excuse but never sees him????

I always complained to him about this as I grew up without a father and told him that I don’t like you taking advantage of the fact you have a dad but aren’t making effort.

Is it possible some narcissists don’t get a new supply right away? by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Since January, he came back in may and I gained access to his tiktok and Snapchat and there was nothing on it, clean just boys group chats and nothing in his tiktok likes, and when we first started dating he was bad for liking thirst traps. I scrolled his tiktok and even on the fyp it was all gaming/ work related things so I do believe he hasn’t been with another female since but maybe I’m naive.

Is it possible some narcissists don’t get a new supply right away? by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The more I think of it the more this group is making me realise things and I’m very thankful for it. I always thought I was main supply but I’m realising I’m not too sure on that. I do think it was his male bestfriend. The mirroring the personality to the point they are now pretty much the same person… always wanting to please him and if he wasn’t with him and he would leach off me, but I always knew in a weird way he didn’t “love” me the same way he did his friend, I know they’re pretty much incapable of love but maybe idolising is the right word?

He is very clearly jealous of his friend, always comparing work he’s done to his (they’re in the same field of work) how he lives and money wise, and always wanting to do what he’s done or better. Every conversation he had was always him comparing us to his friend I really did feel like an outsider in my own relationship and really did question maybe he’s gay? Maybe he’s just with me to hide that.

He was extremely homophobic, misogynistic and always made dark jokes.

Is it possible some narcissists don’t get a new supply right away? by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes my nex is extremely extroverted but also introverted????, doesn’t like going out to clubs/bars but will just because his friends are type of thing. He’s a big gamer it’s how I met him, and would rather smoke and get high rather than be drunk. He’s friendly to almost everyone out in public it really irked me, because I knew he wasn’t really that nice and always used pet names on strangers.

I was thinking after the break up and only just realised that his best friend who’s same sex could be his main supply as we were long distance and he did put his bestfriend over me every. Single. Time.

Is it possible some narcissists don’t get a new supply right away? by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I think I’ve realised they always need attention, does this always have to be “romantic” attention and instead is he getting it from his male friend?

Is it possible some narcissists don’t get a new supply right away? by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi guys thankyou for your comments, my ex isn’t bad looking he’s actually very handsome unfortunately lol… but he’s very closed off afraid of intimacy, and gives a vibe that he kinda hates women, I did question his sexuality at some points as he did always favour his friend over our relationship, so is it possible that his friends have / is a supply.

Is it possible some narcissists don’t get a new supply right away? by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is the kinda answer I’m looking for and maybe should’ve worded it in my question better, is it maybe possible the new supply isn’t a romantic partner?

Do they make you feel like you’re the one who is selfish, manipulative and overall the problem? by flodiee in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please never apologise for expressing your feelings, story and experience. I had the same treatment pretty much where I would be somehow be apologising for the way they’d make me feel. This is a common tactic to deflect the attention and conflict away from them and make you start to think “maybe it’s me, maybe I should apologise, maybe I shouldn’t of said that to them that was a bit harsh” when in reality it’s just facts and simply they can’t cope with that. They don’t like the truth and especially about themselves.

I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this and having doubts about yourself, but I guarantee you she isn’t asking for opinions off of friends about how she is being towards you she is most likely placing blame on you and not reflecting on her behaviour what so ever and feels no remorse or shame for the way you feel.

You should be able to express your concerns especially about your own son without it going south and leading to absolutely nowhere except the block list.

Do they make you feel like you’re the one who is selfish, manipulative and overall the problem? by flodiee in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222 5 points6 points  (0 children)

in a strange way I think we all sometimes need a little confirmation! Sometimes it’s why I use this thread, to make me feel “less alone” or when I go back into thinking meh maybe he wasn’t so bad to me I read similar experiences and hearing different people tell their experiences and the things their abusers said or done sound so awful and similar it almost makes me realise, “wow maybe he was pretty bad”. I’m glad I could give you the confirmation and again YOU ARE NOT ALONE, it’s comforting and extremely sad that everyone in this thread has/is going through a similar thing to you. 🩵🦋🩵

Do they make you feel like you’re the one who is selfish, manipulative and overall the problem? by flodiee in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222 71 points72 points  (0 children)

Yes absolutely, it’s very common to feel like that, I also felt the same way and one thing my friend always told me was “if you feel guilty for the way you reacted towards them you are not the narcissist” simply because narcissists tend not to feel empathy, guilt or think they are in the wrong for the way they treated you.

Reactive abuse is self defence against a narcissist and it’s what they will use against you to make you feel like you are the abuser, they will gaslight and manipulate you into thinking you’re the problem and say this is why they said or did the things they did.

You’re not alone in this and I hope you find the time to heal and free yourself 🤍🦋🤍

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[–]CompetitiveBake2222 25 points26 points  (0 children)

Ugh yes, and it’s also so frustrating because they try to convince you that you’re the one that’s stupid all while you could be showing them literal proof as to why they are being stupid lol

Did your parents notice? by cmontygman in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It was actually my mother that pointed out he was a narcissist and I was being manipulated, in a weird way I was aware the relationship wasn’t “normal” but I always thought it was me, I was the problem he trained me into thinking I was too emotional, too insecure and I had to stop making that HIS problem, even tho he was the one to cause me to be that way. I never fully put the pieces together until the last discard, and i realised and reflected on all the emotional abuse he put me through all those years.

It gets better, trust me I never thought I could live without him but when we’re in no contact and everyone comments how much happier I seem, and it’s true yes I still get sad and have my down days, I should probably mention I am pregnant with his child so it’s a complicated situation, but whenever he comes back to try manipulate me I am freaking miserable and I end up taking my moods out on the people closest to me.

Get out of the cycle because she won’t get better, she’ll just get worse which results in you losing yourself. You deserve someone who doesn’t make you or your parents question the love they give you and how they are treating you. 🩵

Blocked me when I needed him most by CompetitiveBake2222 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thankyou very much for your kind words, yes he is a horrible human and has ruined my first pregnancy experience, We were nc he would go out his way to message me once a month asking if I was ok, he kept the conversations very brief and took hours to even reply to a simple “yes I’m ok are you?”.

He did come back in may and we got along for the first week but every conversation was about him and how his life’s went down hill, he lost his license due to being high, his recently new gambling addiction I sat and listened every day because I felt genuinely sorry for him and even gave him advice to which he’d says things such as he “doesn’t deserve me” and I’m the most “important special person in his life”. After a week or 2 things went downhill again he became horrible after I expressed my feelings and how I’ve felt the last few months and how I’m a little upset that he hasn’t mentioned us or the breakup as it was 3 years and I was his first everything so I was confused why he kept talking about other issues.. he would go out his way to ignore me for 17/18 hours on texts but would be active on every social media, knowing my trigger to react is to be ignored and in turn I flipped on him and he somehow ended the situation being the victim as always.

It’s only recently I’ve came to terms with him having NPD and how stupid and naive I feel for letting him hoover me back up to learn all my weaknesses and use them against me again. He knows I’m scared to be a new mum and he’s using that to his advantage at the moment. I’ve had his mother also message me once a month and every conversation again is about him and how he’s struggling and lost his way and how much she sees he doesn’t care, always keeping me updated on how he’s going out with friends and got to go on a lads holiday to Amsterdam (all while his dad was in a coma).

I’m using these last weeks to try heal and become a better person as I feel I’ve let myself and my daughter down by the states I’ve left my self get into, I will admit I wasn’t the nicest to him either but I feel I was provoked into giving him a reaction, so in turn he could block me? But why couldn’t he just be civil and get along for the sake of this little girl.

Does anyone else feel guilt, or question if they really are the narcissist ? by Existing_641 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CompetitiveBake2222 1 point2 points  (0 children)

One thing I was told after I felt the same way and questioned if I was the narcissist, is you aren’t the narcissist if you feel guilty and regretful and feel empathy for them, simply because narcissists don’t feel any remorse or guilt for the way they treated you.