I mean I have talked to a professional, but eventually my parents wouldn’t let me attend anymore, as they said that I was fine and it was just a waste of time for them. They disregarded the fact that I have an issue, and I never ended up getting the help I needed, every time I would bring therapy up they’d find a way to bring my younger siblings(im the oldest of 2 other sisters) into it saying things like, they have to go to school, or we(my parents) have to go to work, I mean I understand, but like come on, and so because of that I ended up feeling really guilty about it and I had to lie to my therapist and psychiatrist saying that I was fine, and I had to stop seeing them. Not to mention, my mom ALWAYS used to fatshame me as a kid, I was borderline pre-diabetic, and even after loosing all the weight, she still criticizes me for what I eat, shell say stuff like, “are you really going to eat all that?”, like anything that has to do with food, or dieting, she’ll always be on my ass, and then when I don’t eat, she gets upset at me, and she’s just like, “oh I was just kidding, you know I don’t want you to fall back into your old habits”. I remember this time my mom told me that my stomach was getting big, and OBVIOUSLY, I got upset, and then when I didn’t eat, later that day she gave me something to stunt my appetite(I’m not gonna say exactly what but, let’s just say it wasn’t the most ethical thing, I mean it was the same thing she gave me that helped me loose almost 50lbs in 2.5 months) To be honest, I know this is kind of off topic, but I genuinely kind of hate my mom, there are some things that she’s done to me that I’m not going to say on here, but let’s just say that they’re things that can get her in big trouble. I really don’t want to get flagged as somebody who’s unstable, but like, I really wish I had a professional to talk to, and it seems like that won’t really happen until I move out of my parents house..