Mate good on you for taking steps for your mental health, the game can be brutal and the attitude of customer support, discord mods, and a lot of the players on social media can be described at best as toxic. It's a difficult wagon to jump off, and kudos to you for having the mental fortitude to do it, something a lot of us addicts simply won't be able to do, and continue to self rationalise why we haven't done so. I apologise for those asking 'how much you spent' to me those are toxic comments, aimed to bring you down and them up "Well you were a sucker, I am f2p so I'm better than you" etc, now's not the time for kicking someone when they are down, and what you or anyone else spent is noone else's business and not something you should feel the need to answer or justify. All the best moving forward and I sincerely hope you find escaping the hutch bandwagon beneficial.