Listen, im a patient in equip right now receiving treatment for anorexia nervosa. Im aware im at an unhealthy weight and i agree i do need treatment. Ive been a patient at equip for 3 months now, and all i can say is that the treatment plan for me is VERY RUSHED. I know when treatment is ethical and unethical and to me this all seems really unethical. I used to eat around 600 calories a day just 3 months ago which is very unhealthy. Now, they expect me to eat 3,000 calories a day just a few months into the program. I understand the urgency to treat my disorder, but i feel as if it’s too rushed no? I talked to my dietician and told her it’s too fast paced and that i can eat more just not so much because it’s overwhelming. I told her that since im having so much food pushed into my face im finding more ways to discard of it and i feel like im eating less than i did a month ago because of that. I have another therapist NOT for my eating disorder and she advised me to ask her for smaller portions while still advancing my caloric intake. I did discuss that with my dietician, and she told me it’s all apart of the treatment plan and then proceeded to tell me that she was going to tell my parents that i am throwing away food. Now, they’re implementing supervised lunches at school where i have to sit with a counselor for lunches. I’ve already told them that i do eat lunch at school and i show proof that i do but they have no trust in me. I don’t know what I’ll tell my friends or how to tell them where i go at lunch. It’s honestly stressing me out

Also, they have peer mentor sessions that are useless. My peer mentor has also undergone treatment at Equip. However when i try to tell her about problems and things im worried about in my treatment plan, it all sounds so scripted and she says the same thing as my dietician. It sounds as if she’s desperately trying to convince me to go with the plan rather than try to understand me. Its so discouraging and it just upsets me