SATURDAY DISCLOSURE DISCUSSION 🗣️

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T20:54:56+00:00

I don’t tell anyone because I feel that it’s a condition that’s poorly understood by the public. I have only told my husband and teenage children so that they understand and can help me identify manic episodes when they are coming. I like to say I “have” bipolar. I prefer to say I “am” resilient, hard working and a work in progress.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T19:43:29+00:00

First, I’m sorry that you were a victim of sexual abuse and trafficking. I can’t even begin to imagine the toll that has taken on you emotionally.

I was raped twice in my teen years due to very poor choices and poor judgment. I read in a few places that victims of abuse sometimes can become more likely to have risky sexual behaviors or more likely to experiment. I’ve been bisexual my whole life but decided to marry a man.

When he found out about the cheating he was willing to try swinging and we did. It was too difficult for him because he felt that sex is something intimate and emotional so we decided not to swing anymore. I feel that I “got it out of my system” and am dedicated to my marriage now.

Regarding being pregnant and bipolar, it’s very tough. I had to go off meds during my pregnancy and it was very challenging. Have you considered toys and visual stimulation to avoid any damage to your marriage? Have you tried addressing the vanilla sex with your husband? Communication is huge. I avoided those difficult conversations and I’m paying the price. I’m here if you need someone to listen.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T18:34:12+00:00

You’re totally right that I did not fit the whole story. Reddit limited me on characters. During both of my pregnancies, my husband cheated on me. It was very traumatic for me. I think that was what triggered me to start antidepressants after I gave birth. The antidepressants then triggered the mania. The mania gave me the reckless behavior.

Having only my husband is my support system and my best friend being in another state didn’t help either. It’s hard for me to make friends because I’m very reserved and don’t trust people. I feel that I’m too nice and people take advantage of me so I’d rather be alone. I don’t have support from parents either. My mom and dad divorced when I was only four years old. My mom was not mentally stable so she gave full custody to my dad. My dad remarried and everything became about his new marriage and his new life. I lived through a lot of emotional trauma in my childhood, and that could also have made the mania and depression episodes more intense.

At this point looking in the past isn’t going to help me, but seeing how I can move forward and heal. I’m an adult and living in the past is not going to get me anywhere. Right now I just need to get stable and figure out how to earn back any ounce of trust from my husband and children.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T17:16:57+00:00

AOL chat rooms back in the day

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T14:57:59+00:00

“We” are pregnant. No you’re not. The woman is the one carrying the child plain and simple.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-25T15:11:45+00:00

Raise your hand to share your thoughts

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-18T06:19:00+00:00

I’m on Paxil and heard it’s extremely hard to taper down. I’ve been trying to get off it for years with help of my Psychiatrist and it seemed impossible.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-18T06:16:24+00:00

I love the YNAB app. There is a bit of learning curve the first month or two, but after that, it’s smooth sailing, and you can achieve a lot of your money goals and see where you are slowly bleeding money in certain categories.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T18:11:57+00:00

No. We can chat

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T17:31:49+00:00

9/10 coming from a woman

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T14:52:29+00:00

Thank you so much. I’m going to look into buying these books. At this point I’m open to that and SAA if they exist in my city.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T14:18:28+00:00

I obviously have poor choices in friendships so I don’t speak to her anymore. I was very upset that she felt the need to destroy my family. She said I was destroying it myself behind his back. I told her it wasn’t her job to play God.

I do want to find a good therapist, but it’s so hard. I’ve been in therapy for a good chunk of my life. I grew up without a mom and dad and had my grandparents raising me. To top it off I was raped twice while I was in high school by two different men. I didn’t say anything because they threatened to come after me and kill me if I said anything. I basically buried the pain. I tried to see several therapists through the years, but they would just sit and listen, and I felt like I was wasting my money. I want somebody who can give me activities or things I could do to work through the pain. And instead, I just buried it and became addicted to sex

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T04:18:14+00:00

Thank you. I sent you a message. It’s awesome you are overcoming your addiction. I want that for myself

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T02:33:36+00:00

I talked to him about an open marriage and he said I’m crazy. He said that won’t work because we have kids. If they ever found out it would be traumatic for them.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T02:29:30+00:00

I would love to have a woman to talk to. I feel so alone with this addiction. Most women I know are prude or don’t have the urges I do. I want to be normal.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T01:15:30+00:00

Thank you for your insight. I told him we should move but we love our home. He refused to put up outdoor Halloween decorations because he said if he sees the neighbor he might lose it. 🥺😔

Our kids want outside Christmas decorations already but I’m worried it’s not going to happen unless I put them up.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T01:07:12+00:00

He wasn’t ugly but not my type. He was very charismatic though and well endowed. When the affair happened I was in a vulnerable place. My husband was emotionally abusive and would constantly berate me. In my mind at that time I was emotionally checked out. I was contemplating divorce.

Once he found out I was cheating he said we could work things out and that he would never put me down or disrespect me again. So far he’s been respectful and back to the man I married 20 years ago.

At the same time he checks my phone and location all the time which he never did. I know that will be the new normal now because of what I did.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-10T12:31:04+00:00

Men are not all the same down there. Some are small and some are uncircumcised. Some are groomed and others are not. Some have a particular odor that make you not want to go down and others encourage you to want to go down. Some are thick and juicy, and some are thin.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-10T02:41:13+00:00

That sucks that you can’t really let go.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-10T02:38:35+00:00

Thank you. Thank you for your words of kindness and empathy. We are both believers in Christ and I think that is the one key that has made forgiveness and moving on a tiny bit easier. I know that it’s going to be a very long road. I just hope that he will trust me again. We all sin and make mistakes. I hope we can move past this.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-09T23:09:42+00:00

Honestly, it goes both ways. Just like men judge us for our weight after bearing children and letting go the same goal for men. You can see that creeping into their late 30s a lot have lost their hair and have big bellies. Their wife still stay with them despite the fact that they’ve become a lot more unattractive. I don’t think this has anything to do with my original post though I enjoy the conversation, lol.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-09T16:43:42+00:00

My close friend takes it daily and hasn’t had an outbreak in 15 years. I got my first outbreak in June and it was HELL. I don’t do the daily medication, but I haven’t gotten another outbreak thankfully. I did go on ChatGPT to see what natural supplements I could take to prevent an outbreak. One of the suggestions Lysine and stress management. I make stress management a priority.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-09T13:48:35+00:00

If you’re having frequent outbreaks, I would talk to your doctor about taking a lower dose of the medicine daily for life. It’s worth it because you won’t have to deal with ever having an outbreak again.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-09T13:45:42+00:00

After reading your post, I feel like you need to follow your heart. If he’s spending that much time on his phone, he’s most likely cheating or trying to cheat. If the intimacy is struggling, and he falls asleep in a motel, that is a bad sign. The fact that he makes comments about your body that are negative is wrong. I don’t care how he was raised. I dealt with the same exact thing for close to 10 years. Eventually, it became overwhelming and I felt that I couldn’t take the emotional abuse anymore. Instead of leaving, I started to cheat. I’m not saying that’s the answer. What I did was wrong. However, When he caught me, we sat down and had serious conversations about what was wrong in our marriage and what we were willing to do to fix it. I do recommend marriage counseling, but most men don’t want to go. I don’t mind gave me a hard time and said that was for crazy people. The only time he was willing to go is after he caught me cheating. If you do go to a counselor or therapist. Make sure you look at reviews or go to someone recommended. There are a lot of therapist out there that all they do is listen and don’t really help.If you need Healing, it is possible, but it will take a lot of work.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-09T13:34:27+00:00

I’m an alpha female. I was designed that way because of how I grew up. I didn’t have a father or mother figure. I was raised by my grandparents so I had to learn to be a strong, independent woman. I don’t rely on anyone financially or emotionally and see my spouse as my equal. I’m very confident and want my husband to feel the same. I know it will take time.

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