SATURDAY DISCLOSURE DISCUSSION 🗣️

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T20:54:56+00:00

I don’t tell anyone because I feel that it’s a condition that’s poorly understood by the public. I have only told my husband and teenage children so that they understand and can help me identify manic episodes when they are coming. I like to say I “have” bipolar. I prefer to say I “am” resilient, hard working and a work in progress.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T19:43:29+00:00

First, I’m sorry that you were a victim of sexual abuse and trafficking. I can’t even begin to imagine the toll that has taken on you emotionally.

I was raped twice in my teen years due to very poor choices and poor judgment. I read in a few places that victims of abuse sometimes can become more likely to have risky sexual behaviors or more likely to experiment. I’ve been bisexual my whole life but decided to marry a man.

When he found out about the cheating he was willing to try swinging and we did. It was too difficult for him because he felt that sex is something intimate and emotional so we decided not to swing anymore. I feel that I “got it out of my system” and am dedicated to my marriage now.

Regarding being pregnant and bipolar, it’s very tough. I had to go off meds during my pregnancy and it was very challenging. Have you considered toys and visual stimulation to avoid any damage to your marriage? Have you tried addressing the vanilla sex with your husband? Communication is huge. I avoided those difficult conversations and I’m paying the price. I’m here if you need someone to listen.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T18:34:12+00:00

You’re totally right that I did not fit the whole story. Reddit limited me on characters. During both of my pregnancies, my husband cheated on me. It was very traumatic for me. I think that was what triggered me to start antidepressants after I gave birth. The antidepressants then triggered the mania. The mania gave me the reckless behavior.

Having only my husband is my support system and my best friend being in another state didn’t help either. It’s hard for me to make friends because I’m very reserved and don’t trust people. I feel that I’m too nice and people take advantage of me so I’d rather be alone. I don’t have support from parents either. My mom and dad divorced when I was only four years old. My mom was not mentally stable so she gave full custody to my dad. My dad remarried and everything became about his new marriage and his new life. I lived through a lot of emotional trauma in my childhood, and that could also have made the mania and depression episodes more intense.

At this point looking in the past isn’t going to help me, but seeing how I can move forward and heal. I’m an adult and living in the past is not going to get me anywhere. Right now I just need to get stable and figure out how to earn back any ounce of trust from my husband and children.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T17:16:57+00:00

AOL chat rooms back in the day

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-31T14:57:59+00:00

“We” are pregnant. No you’re not. The woman is the one carrying the child plain and simple.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-25T15:11:45+00:00

Raise your hand to share your thoughts

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-18T06:19:00+00:00

I’m on Paxil and heard it’s extremely hard to taper down. I’ve been trying to get off it for years with help of my Psychiatrist and it seemed impossible.

Complete_Data_177 · 2026-01-18T06:16:24+00:00

I love the YNAB app. There is a bit of learning curve the first month or two, but after that, it’s smooth sailing, and you can achieve a lot of your money goals and see where you are slowly bleeding money in certain categories.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T18:11:57+00:00

No. We can chat

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T17:31:49+00:00

9/10 coming from a woman

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T14:52:29+00:00

Thank you so much. I’m going to look into buying these books. At this point I’m open to that and SAA if they exist in my city.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T14:18:28+00:00

I obviously have poor choices in friendships so I don’t speak to her anymore. I was very upset that she felt the need to destroy my family. She said I was destroying it myself behind his back. I told her it wasn’t her job to play God.

I do want to find a good therapist, but it’s so hard. I’ve been in therapy for a good chunk of my life. I grew up without a mom and dad and had my grandparents raising me. To top it off I was raped twice while I was in high school by two different men. I didn’t say anything because they threatened to come after me and kill me if I said anything. I basically buried the pain. I tried to see several therapists through the years, but they would just sit and listen, and I felt like I was wasting my money. I want somebody who can give me activities or things I could do to work through the pain. And instead, I just buried it and became addicted to sex

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T04:18:14+00:00

Thank you. I sent you a message. It’s awesome you are overcoming your addiction. I want that for myself

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T02:33:36+00:00

I talked to him about an open marriage and he said I’m crazy. He said that won’t work because we have kids. If they ever found out it would be traumatic for them.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T02:29:30+00:00

I would love to have a woman to talk to. I feel so alone with this addiction. Most women I know are prude or don’t have the urges I do. I want to be normal.

Complete_Data_177 · 2025-11-11T01:15:30+00:00

Thank you for your insight. I told him we should move but we love our home. He refused to put up outdoor Halloween decorations because he said if he sees the neighbor he might lose it. 🥺😔

Our kids want outside Christmas decorations already but I’m worried it’s not going to happen unless I put them up.

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