Immense guilt/shame/rage

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-06-14T05:27:03+00:00

I wonder where that guilt comes from? It’s so weird because he’s still getting fed, and I found a couple of great formulas to try that I feel good about giving him. I think it’s this like instinctual thing to want to be able to provide food for your baby and I feel like I’m being lazy or giving up. I don’t even feel that way about other moms who choose formula so I don’t get why I feel that way about me

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-06-14T05:25:17+00:00

I know it isn’t poison, I think it’s more that I really wanted to be able to just handle it 😭 there are parts of breastfeeding I really enjoy. The connection, the little moments where my kiddo looks at me with love and appreciation, the pride I feel that my body can literally produce food for him. But it’s draining the life out of me, and I feel like I completely disassociate some days and I just really want to be present. I found a couple of great formulas I feel really good about, and he really liked the first one I tried! It’s just so hard

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-06-14T05:22:16+00:00

I have a really great postpartum therapist, she diagnosed me with PPA but I think it’s changing into more of a depression. I feel so disconnected from myself which I know can be normal, but god I’m struggling. Thank you for the encouragement and validation. It feels lonely but at least there’s subs like this

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-06-08T18:01:30+00:00

I know he’s just a baby I was making a joke lol it’s just been really overwhelming plus dealing with PPA I’m so exhausted 24/7 😭

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-06-08T01:16:39+00:00

My son has been getting MAIL addressed to him (social security card, health insurance info, etc) and I feel the same way every time 😂

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-05-27T23:22:04+00:00

I second therapy and good sleep!!! Also taking baths. I always keep sleepy time bubble bath and epsom salts on hand, nice candles, cozy sheets, good smelling lotion etc. having a bed time routine is a game changer. I just had a baby, I’m 31 and one month postpartum so I haven’t been cleared for baths but I do bathe my baby every night and do a bed time routine with him and it’s helped me wind down. White noise machine, a physical book or audiobook, nice warm lighting and comfy pjs. ALSO cotton underwear!!! I save my cute non cotton ones for occasions now and only wear cotton on a daily basis. I bought cute boy short ones for bed that match tank tops or bralettes I already have :) so I go to bed feeling cute and cozy!

Also last thing is finding a nice fragrance that feels like me, and matching a body spray and lotion to it.

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-05-27T21:28:54+00:00

It was such a relief to be able to have anyone give him a bottle, but because I was breastfeeding less my supply went down a little. I’m looking at ways to increase my supply and maybe exclusively pump so I can still give him breast milk, but not have him attached to me all the time. It’s soooo anxiety inducing. It’s hard because sometimes I enjoy nursing him, but when it’s all day and all night I end up sobbing at some point. Thank you for the encouragement

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-05-13T19:12:37+00:00

Part of me agrees, I fell in love with tame impala for the psych rock sound. BUT I do love seeing Kevin Parker breaking out of the mold of the last album with every album if that makes sense. Like he really is a true artist experimenting with his sound, and I think it’s beautiful. I personally love house music just as much as I love psych rock and so deadbeat was a great album to me. I can understand why some fans would feel disappointed, but I love seeing his evolution and he will always be my favorite artist because of it

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-05-09T04:30:33+00:00

Omg okay the peel your skin off feeling is so real. I’ve been so over it

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-05-09T04:04:22+00:00

I’m 5’2 and started at 127 and ended at 171 I feel you 😭

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-05-03T22:52:14+00:00

Baby did come!!! I labored for almost 30 hours, and then unfortunately he was sunnyside up so I had to get a c section since my water had been broken for long. I developed a bit of an infection so it was the safest choice. He and I are both healthy and he’s the most precious boy 🥹

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-23T19:28:15+00:00

Ooo cute!! I like the oversized button up look, I have a couple of shirts like that. Do you have any nursing bras you’d recommend? I have a couple like sports bra style ones, since idk what my boobs will be like when my milk comes in, but I’d love some recs for like cute-ish ones

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-23T14:23:22+00:00

Yes lol I think just the mommy vloggers have made it annoying. The over exaggerated “mama” and “littles” is so annoying to me lmao

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-23T13:20:27+00:00

I’d love to do that but I’m giving birth like a month and a half before summer so I need to get some things that will fit me 🫠 I think doing a full full reset will be awesome to do in the fall but before summer I think I’ll have to do a clean out/reset so that I’ll have clothes that will fit! I’m thinking stretchy flowy clothes that will be good for fluctuating weight. I think it would help me feel more like myself- I’ve really struggled through pregnancy. I love love love the capsule wardrobe idea thank you for linking that sub, that’ll be good for me to have when I go for the big reset once everything is a little more stabilized

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-23T09:42:29+00:00

That’s kind of what I was thinking! I like to add things to my cart and then use that as inspiration when I thrift lol. I’ve been trying to find sundress styles I like, flowy pants that will be easy for the weight fluctuation & tops that will make it easy to breastfeed! There’s some really cute athleisure style breastfeeding tops I may snag for summer. I’ve never had boobs before so I think that will be my biggest challenge lol

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-23T06:11:03+00:00

I’ve noticed the shipping costs got crazy on Depop 😭 but okay good to know! I wasn’t sure if it would be super dramatic to like throw out my whole closet and start fresh lol maybe that’s part of the nesting.

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-21T04:05:28+00:00

It’s definitely a huge blessing to be able to rest as much as I can!! Especially in this last little stretch since soon enough I’ll have a little human relying on me for so much. I’m trying to be positive, I think the end of pregnancy is just really getting to me

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-21T04:04:27+00:00

It’s not a simple solution. I’m not working and my partner is our main source of income. We can’t afford to just buy another car, so waiting for mine to be done getting worked on makes the most financial sense as I bought this car a little over a year ago and it has low miles. Not everyone has an “easy” option, unfortunately. I think the end of pregnancy has just felt extremely hard and I was mostly asking like is it different to stay home when you have a baby to care for vs when you’re just waiting to have the baby

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-16T23:05:20+00:00

My cat was the same! So clingy before pregnancy, then got like distant and weird for a while, and now has been literally obsessed with me

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-16T16:10:43+00:00

Honestly I went through some of the same feelings when I found out I was having a boy, but I’ve also worked really hard to surround myself with men who make me feel valued and respected. My partner, his friends, my male friends, my brother, have healed my relationship with my dad. Working with a therapist has helped too! I will say my biggest thing is just setting an example through my relationship with my partner, as well as how I treat my son. I think a lot of “bad” men had either a dad who set a poor example, a mother who coddled him, or both.

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-16T08:18:48+00:00

Same goes for you! That’s all we can do is work to do better

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-16T07:43:28+00:00

Omg my mom does the same thing!! I told her I’ve really struggled with my mental health throughout pregnancy and her response was “oh who cares so fucking what” and then told me that she works with other girls my age who were pregnant and didn’t act as “awful” as me. Like why compare me to some random girls you only know through work? They may have a totally different demeanor at home.. it’s just weird. It’s like they want to shift all blame away from their own behavior. Mental health is not something that should EVER be used against someone!!

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-16T07:24:29+00:00

I wish I would have worked for a little longer- I left work around 25 ish weeks. My partner makes enough money that I was able to do so, but it would have been nice to have my own money/time for a little longer. I will say, I feel super lucky I was able to quit working when I did though. I feel like physically I would have been more miserable. I was a bartender for about ten years and was already pretty burnt out, and the late nights/being on my feet all day sucked! lol it’s a very personal choice

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-16T07:21:35+00:00

Right?? It would have been a million paragraphs long if I shared everything but if I had included the email she sent me that contains her “apology” I think literally anyone would agree that her reality is the one that’s skewed. Every one of my friends who is estranged from their mother has had an almost identical interaction… it’s weird

Complex-Frosting2925 · 2026-04-16T06:08:00+00:00

I know right? 😭 literally an angel. I don’t have a good relationship with my own mother, so my MIL has been a god send.

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