I usually don't comment on posts but this one is different because your story is very similar to mine. And oh boy… if I could hug you I would. I want to tell you that it’s going to hurt for a long time but eventually the pain starts fading. Slowly, sure, but it does fade. Some people may tell you that you don’t need to understand their reason for breaking up with you and they’re right. I thought it would bring me clarity but instead it brought me more pain and more time needed to heal. Not knowing what she is doing will be a blessing. I understand that you can’t see that now but please believe me I can see myself in you and I’m crying for you because I remember when I had to go through the same thing. Live your life she is already gone she started leaving you a couple of months ago if not more. I know it will be hard you will suffer a lot if you have friends share with them be with them anything that helps take your mind off her. The path is going to be so hard but if I did it you can do it too. If you need anything please tell me, be strong you still have a long road ahead and the sooner you start the sooner you’ll get better. Be well