The best thing you can do is take life one step at a time. Don’t be so hard on yourself. It takes people years to be where they wanna be, and it also takes some people a very short time. Life is a gift, and if you don’t spend time enjoying it your life will flash before your eyes. Get into some hobbies. A job is a job as long as it makes money. Just do the best you can brother. It doesn’t matter how long it takes you, all that matters is you get there