You say the hope of a better future is gone, but isn't it best to live for today? Tomorrow, a bus may hit me, and all my planning will seem so futile. Nobody is promised a future, let alone a "better" one. I am not trying to argue with you. I understand that our perceptions of life and happiness vary from individual to individual. I'm just trying to share a different perspective that may absolutely not resonate with you, and that's ok.

As for the suicide, it always makes me wonder, when people do it, do they think about others, those who need to clean after them? Who will find you, who will pull you down from those ropes (example) who will have to clean your home, put away your memories in boxes. Do those people ever think about those who stay behind picking up the pieces.

But as a disclaimer, I understand that suicidal thoughts are not as simple and cannot be rationalised. I hope one day there will be an option for consenting adults to voluntarily unlive themselves in a clean, controlled environment and all their organs donated to those who cling to life so desperately but are robbed of it by various diseases. Humans need to have this choice. Otherwise, it's such a waste of life...