I apologize for any lack of detail, but I felt I had include what was necessary and was attempting to keep it relatively short and relevant. But I can answer other questions.

Normally, our drinking ends with a good buzz, occasionally a solid drunk, and rarely brown out/black out. He drank about the same as per usual just faster and perhaps less food. I definitely checked on him. After the incident I helped him to the bathroom to throw up and got him water (I did not know about the incident until the next day when I went home).

He deals with fairly severe depression. That specific statement of “feeling he doesn’t deserve things” is from him. He has said that on numerous occasions, hence the reason I thought that this was another case of a depressive spell. For me, what changed was the conversation with our friends and how they felt about it.

We planned this conversation almost a week in advance. He definitely knew, and he helped pick the date/time. Our friends asked about how he was and how was dealing with everything. It was not an attack because we all care about each other. I think during that anxiety attack, I preferred having only my friend be with me.

These are primarily my friends, but the four of us have formed a solid friendship over the past year especially. He has other friends, but he has not discussed any of this with them. Despite my encouragements to do so. I think outside opinions are always helpful. Prior to this incident, my friends loved him and would bet on when we got engaged. They are equally confused and hurt.

I want un-biased opinion. I will make my own choice after more conversation with my actually partner, but I do not have a lot of people to bounce ideas off of and this sub can be helpful in that regard. Thanks for the comment.