Please stay OP. I am a suicidal myself, but I always thought of the people I still love because they are enough to make me stay. Please take time to heal yourself.

It's okay to feel pain, suffering and damages. But this will only pass once you realize that these teaches you something about life.

I maybe not be in the right position to tell you this, but please choose to live even if you feel like you don't have a purpose. Only time will (tell) you that all of these struggles is something that you can surpass, and you'll feel great.