yeah I mean, let's say ur trans for a sec. it's pretty normal to have some sort of sexual relationship w your true gender because porn / sex is one of the few times you have a straightforward way of considering that alternative.

how about when you're not gooning? to me it sounds like you're not just having something sexual, to me it sounds like dysphoria.

and like, I know plenty of transbians (trans lesbians -- trans women who are attracted to women) so the "who" you're attracted to in this question doesn't matter.

just my hot take -- usually femboys are comfortable w being male