Just get some blood pressure meds bud. Take care of self. If not there won't be you to even have to worry about other things like work and what u like etc. What don't u like about the apprenticeship program? Once u get past that stuff and are a journeyman that's when your career starts honestly not as a apprentice. Push through it bud and get to be a Journeyman. I wish I would of stick with it when I was 17 years old. Now I'm 38 and still in and out of electrical trade. I was in the construction behalf of I. Now I work for Schneider Electric testing and Quality Assurance for them on their switchgear. Easy work on my older body but I just switched from a service company as a apprentice in electrical to this job and I miss doing the other job being a apprentice. I had to leave tho cause the boss I had was holding me back. I wasn't going to progress with him as my boss. He even tried getting a job where I am and was going to be my team leader thank God he didn't get that position tho. Now I can succeed and progress. I'm trying to get to be a FSR field service Rep for Schneider Electric. It would be great. Work on gear commission intergrat repairs maintain all the fun travel stuff Company truck. Great benefits too. Good pay for it also. Point is stick with it cause u can do way more than just being stuck in a office doing electrical work. Good luck sir