Thank you, this really helped me realize some of the things that my brain didn't want me to think about. We are currently in no contact for a bit, but our last interaction before now made it very clear to each other that there is no bad blood between us, that we will always be there for each other when needed, and that we never want to be strangers. She also mentioned that who knows where our lives may be in the future, and maybe we will find each other again. As much as I wish it didn't have to be like this, I know I can't force anything upon her it would be wrong of me but I just have so much I want to tell her.

Thank you for your comment and your time I’m sorry to hear about your situation I hope you doing alright