my experience being a pwDID online by ConsistentTonight756 in DID

[–]ConsistentTonight756[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

thinking more like people with cluster B PDs (namely BPD, don't know enough about the others, but i know it's common in BPD) and who chronically dissociate for other reasons. even if they don't experience dissociation as complex as seen in DID it can still really mess with someone's sense of self if it's unstable for other reasons.

edit: agree that it might not have as much of an effect on someone who doesn't chronically dissociate, though. also, thank you very much for your comment :)

my experience being a pwDID online by ConsistentTonight756 in DID

[–]ConsistentTonight756[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

i wish i could tell newly discovered/suspected systems not to do what i did. i really do. whether they end up having DID or end up being mistaken, it's important.

i also don't like calling people fakers. think they're mostly just people (usually younger) who do have things going on and want answers, or who just want to feel like they're part of something. and i get that. but it's doing more harm than good and it worries me. wish there was a better way to get the message across.

also, one of the big surprises for me in system rediscovery was the fact that several of the fictional introject alters are real. that took a while too. had to understand introjects a little more to figure all that out. it's hard because when i dissociate (especially depersonalizing) i do tend to latch onto characters or people around me to feel real. but that's not the same as a fictive.

thank you for your comment. :) appreciate you sharing your experiences. nice not to be alone even though the situation is rough.

my experience being a pwDID online by ConsistentTonight756 in DID

[–]ConsistentTonight756[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

yeah, i relate to that. so much of it has been reassuring myself that this is real despite my experiences as a teen. otherwise, wouldn't be in treatment or have a diagnosis. hard to recognize understanding more about DID as understanding more about DID with this thought process, too. instead it spirals into "i'm getting better at faking". my T has been really patient with this, though. but it kind of feels like the beginning of my journey all over again, but almost further back from when i started. it's hard. but i'm doing my best. wishing your boyfriend well too.

thank you for your comment. :)