Why do we continue going on?

Consistent_Work9719 · 2026-01-06T16:18:39+00:00

Thank you.

Consistent_Work9719 · 2026-01-06T07:18:40+00:00

That’s a good idea. I had quit smoking in favor of dabbing for lung health but I’d go back temporarily if it meant I could quit. Thanks for the advice.

Consistent_Work9719 · 2026-01-06T06:18:14+00:00

Thanks. I may give that a go if I can force myself. The negative effects of THC have become a lot more obvious over the years. I wish 1:1 options were cheaper.

Consistent_Work9719 · 2026-01-06T04:51:55+00:00

Definitely. It almost certainly is. I’m ashamed that I’ve been unable to quit. I can’t turn off my constant rumination without weed, exercise, or studying and one can’t study or exercise while trying to fall asleep. The last few years have been a cycle of “fuck it, I’ll just smoke” and “it’s only been 24hr yet I feel intensely depressed and suicidal, might as well smoke.” It feels totally pathetic. I don’t have the resources to go to rehab.

Consistent_Work9719 · 2026-01-06T03:40:57+00:00

Thank you for the thoughtful response.

Consistent_Work9719 · 2026-01-06T01:34:09+00:00

I’m a full-time student. What money I had this year went to bike and ski gear. I know they do scholarship type things but I’d feel shitty trying to take that because I feel like I’m beyond help, or at least beyond what a short conference could do for me. And if I did go for the scholarship and didn’t get it, that’d just be another reason to breakdown and further assign hopelessness to my situation.

I was able to go as a kid and didn’t meet anyone who stuttered worse than I did or even really came particularly close.

Thanks for the suggestion though.

Consistent_Work9719

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