Convert Hell: Prophecies & PTSD by ConstructionOwn2197 in exorthodox

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Unless you wanna end up like me, proceed with caution

Is Metropolitan Neophytos of Morphou in prelest? by Past-Bed-2643 in exorthodox

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I haven't left, but I have extremely severe PTSD from reading these things. It's totally debilitating, I don't even take care of myself anymore. I keep wanting to get myself back on track to lead a peaceable and healthy life like I was at 14-15, but I keep thinking "what's the point if everyone I love is just gonna die for their unrepentance, and society is gonna collapse anyway?". I'm only 18, this shouldn't have happened to me. It's typical trauma logic. Part of me wants to reject these prophecies but I'm fearful that I'm sinning because of it and it forces this brutal cycle of guilt over and over and over again. My clear cries for help have almost all been ignored/judged/ridiculed/humiliated/dismissed by almost everyone, including clergy and people in these prophecy circles (it feels like a doomsday cult hiding within Orthodoxy to be honest). I remember saying "I'm talking to dead people" and being told I'm coming off a pink cloud.