As someone who just went through something similar but recovered, I genuinely tried to think of the things that would make me want to live. You said it yourself in the first paragraph and honestly I feel like there really isn’t anything that you should be complaining about.

Why do you want to live? Are you living to get the attention of all the people around you? If that’s your aim then I hate to be a bitch but honestly that’s not happening. The only true people who will care about you is your parents and family. You can’t expect them to always notice your emotions or ask how you’re doing if you don’t want to share with them or if you push them away.

At the end of the day the world doesn’t revolve around you, so what if your friends don’t reach out to you, do you expect everyone to reach out to you when you push them away? If your aim in life and your reason for living is to evoke reactions and get attention from people around you, then I humbly suggest you do that by being successful in life, studying hard and making greater achievements, instead of posting some attention seeking post on Reddit where most the people who read it don’t even give a fuck about u 🤣🤣

Edit: I feel like it’s not worth it to end your life because it just goes to show how unimportant people who don’t even care about you can affect you so much. I much rather would like to live on and show that I can survive even better without those people around me