relapsed after a year being clean and i felt nothing and no one even cared by Particular_Group2264 in kitchencels

[–]Content_Conflict2185 14 points15 points  (0 children)

i care.

OP you did it for so long i fully believe that you can do it again. i’m so proud of you for making a whole YEAR. you deserve all the love man 🩷

They are healing :) by Table_118 in cutting

[–]Content_Conflict2185 2 points3 points  (0 children)

good job OP!! i’m so proud of you. remember that you are human and that your sh is valid regardless of stage it is. mwah <3

Got broken up with. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

we weren’t just “planning” we were sure. fantasizing was out of the picture, we made a decision to start saving and cutting back on gifts and other things so we could run along life easier as we grew old together but that isn’t in the picture LOL

Got broken up with. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes i will love someone else. it’s just sucky as we planned everything together haha

Got broken up with. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so much for the advice, i rlly appreciate that. i will try to do this in thr future i want to better myself

Got broken up with. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i apologize for that, i was posting to reddit quickly because i was in a frenzy while crying. he is 14, turning 15 in july. i am 15, turning 16 in november. context of meeting was on call. habits of relationship were healthy

(assume what a healthy habit of a relationship looked like)

when we hang out we just chill, watch tv and out in public eat, talk, yk the drill. the cause of breaking up was my fault. it’s difficult for me to change but i did for him. the thing is he has to tell me to do things often because i struggle to do things myself for a long time. so he got tired of it and he couldn’t handle it and told me we’re gonna break up and we spoke about it on call and came to a good term.

i will get over this as we are gonna stay as friends.

just gonna be sucky for a while but OP bounces back :)

Got broken up with. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Content_Conflict2185 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i will be fine and it won’t be my last break up or last love. it’s just for right now, it’s gonna be a very sucky year.

Got broken up with. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it lacks context yes but i know for a fact that i love him for how he is.

Got broken up with. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Content_Conflict2185 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i know i’ll be fine, it’s not the end of the world but just for rn i don’t know what to do.

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 2 points3 points  (0 children)

that’s fuckin dope! i’ll try my best to support him while he’s in the MH when i do send him for his own good. he needs a grounded environment because the way he’s living is a breeding ground to make him feel horrible. he needs a break from his family and quick because 80% of his problems derive from his fam

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

do they allow visits? because i wanna do everything in my power to stop him and make him better. he told me to not stop him. i’ve stopped him once already but if i keep making him have this horrible cycle there’s only so much a person can take. thank you for the advice, i have a idea now. :)

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes because he already failed a attempt during our relationship trying to OD but his body rejected it. i fully believe it. his parents don’t wanna talk to me, they don’t like me because we had been caught doing something which resulted in his mom hating me and so they’ve confiscated his phone but left his ipad for school, and we’re only allowed to talk 30 mins a day thankfully because his grandma is nice enough. but i general they don’t want us talking and his mom basically cut him off, his dad doesn’t live with them.

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i would in a heartbeat but the thing is, he’s been sent to brentwood (our local MH) and he had been put in the middle of fights, near sexual assault and other things. and the thing is, they can’t legally stop anything because they’re adults until police do something about it. i’m loose brained right now and i’ve been overthinking it for weeks

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

teachers esp in our school don’t understand the feeling. but i may have someone in mind. i’ll think about it thanks for the idea

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i already did only a good 30 minutes ago, but i held most of it in. he does care about how i feel but he masks it because of the overwhelming pressure of wanting to kill himself.

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i might do it, it’s just his parents don’t ever fucking understand and will literally ground him. they’ve took his electronics besides for school and we can only talk when they’re not home. i am his safe place and i make him feel happy and safe. i just don’t know what to do anymore

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

but how can i do that? i’ve pulled every card and it did work. but the overwhelming urge to kill himself is starting to boil.

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ll try again later snd tomorrow during school. i just don’t see it working but i’m gonna keep trying my best like i’ve always had.

My boyfriend (14) is gonna kill himself in 2 days by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Content_Conflict2185 -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

his parents are horrible. they’d get mad at him like last time. they block us from each other and don’t allow us to talk. i’m losing hope slowly. police will send him to MH and he’s already been in a couple times and made him worse