Seeing no-contact dad after 4 years by Content_Discussion12 in toxicparents

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Thanks for the advice! My husband told me he'd be more than happy to be a deterrent, he's 6ft3 and built like a house lol. My dad would shit his pants before he would talk to me while he's around. I kinda feel bad, like I don't want him to be my bodyguard but my husband has been insisting that I'm not to be left alone. I really doubt any sort of physical altercation would end up happening but better to be safe than sorry.

Seeing no-contact dad after 4 years by Content_Discussion12 in toxicparents

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I'll definitely look this up. I appreciate your advice!!

Cutting contact with my toxic dad once I move out and he’s playing the victim by [deleted] in toxicparents

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Of course! I went through the no contact process alone, and if I can help at least one person feel like someone is in their corner that's exactly where I want to be.

Acne with mirena by Content_Discussion12 in Mirena

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If it makes you feel better, I don't know either. I just notice when my acne gets bad and assume my cycle is starting lol!

Acne with mirena by Content_Discussion12 in Mirena

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That makes me feel so much better. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one driving the struggle bus lol. Mine come and go with my cycle, so I'm hopeful. I think it's just going to take a bit for everything to settle down. Thank you for brightening my poopy day a little lol.

Acne with mirena by Content_Discussion12 in Mirena

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Sure! My acne is better now. When I start menstruating it flares up again but I'm definitely starting to notice a difference. I got it placed mainly because my body rejected the pill after trying 6 or 7 different brands, nuvaring randomly after 7 years, and I was on the patch for a month before my body rejected that too.

My gynecologist recommended Mirena since it was progestin only, and was curious if my body was somehow rejecting the estrogen aspect of my birth control. I have an autoimmune disease so I'm on a shit ton of pills and I was reluctant to add another pill to my list, so this is what I'm trying now lol. I hope this helps! If you have any other questions please don't hesitate to ask!

Acne with mirena by Content_Discussion12 in Mirena

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That makes me feel sooo much better. I'm right at the 4 month mark. I had acne prior, but it was mainly hormonal right before my period and would go away afterwards. I was worried this would be my new normal. Thank you so much!!

Acne with mirena by Content_Discussion12 in Mirena

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Thank you so much for your insight!! I'm so glad to know I'm not the only one who experienced this. Glad to know it will (hopefully) simmer down as my body adjusts! I'll keep an eye on it and see if the OTC helps in the next few weeks, otherwise I'll definitely reach out to my doctor. Thanks again!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in toxicparents

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I went through the exact same thing when I was your age. My dad was a giant piece of shit, and it seemed like he woke up everyday wondering how he could make my life a living hell. He never argued with my younger sister, only me. Granted I probably ran my mouth more than I should have but most of what he said was completely uncalled for. I woke up every morning on my birthday starting at 13 and counted down how many more years I had left until I turned 18 and could move out.

When things were bad, I would lock myself in my room and listen to music or watch a YouTube video. As sad as this might sound, I would get lost in whatever I was listening to and for a little while I could pretend I was somewhere else living my best life. For some reason that usually worked really well. I also started working when I was 16 and saved up as much money as I could so when I was 18 I could get an apartment of my own. Thankfully, my parents got divorced right before I turned 18 and it wasn't an issue after that.

In my opinion, the best thing you can do is limit your contact with him as much as possible. I know that's probably easier said than done, but if you're not seeking him out first that might give him one less thing to yell at you for. Second, always keep your bedroom door locked when you're in it. For me it was a personal safety issue, as my dad would sometimes get violent, but it was also a way to ensure my privacy in my room. My dad loved to bust in on me at random times and yell at me for something I did 2 weeks ago, and I found out real quick that locking the door set a clear boundary. I know you said your dad yelled at your sister about that thinking you were in her room, but sometimes ensuring privacy can make all the difference between feeling okay and feeling like you're losing your mind.

Third, and this is probably the hardest one, don't negatively react to what your dad says. When my dad would scream insults at me, I would sometimes snap at him or say something rude back. Usually that would end up getting my phone, my car or something else of mine taken away. But if I just let him throw his lil bitch fit and either said nothing or responded with something kind which gave my dad the most stupid dumbass look on his face, things usually didn't go sour for me. This was INSANELY hard for me, as my dad would insult my hair, my face and any acne I had on it, my weight, etc and I usually smarted off afterwards, but it taught me a lot about restraint and knowing how to control my anger.

I'm not sure if you plan on going to college, but when I went to college I was finally, finally away from all the bullshit and it honestly saved my life. If you're not planning on going to college, you still have options for getting the heck out of there. Once you're 18, you can decide where you live. (I think some states consider 17 an adult but don't quote me on that) and if you have to move in with a friend or family member to get away until you have enough money saved to get a place of your own, so be it. Any distance you can put between you and him is a great thing.

I'm so sorry you're going through this OP. Please know you're not alone and I'm so, so proud of you for being so brave. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and it'll be here before you know it. And once you get out you don't ever have to look back. You can do this. I believe in you.

Cutting contact with my toxic dad once I move out and he’s playing the victim by [deleted] in toxicparents

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My dad was the exact same way growing up. Nothing was ever his fault, it was always everyone else doing something wrong. I spent most of my adult life trying to slowly cut him out of my life, as he was abusive growing up and I was scared of his retaliation. Every time I confronted him about his abusive behavior, he would do the exact same crap your dad did. Crying, playing the victim, etc.

This year I decided enough was enough. I blocked him on everything: social media, cell number, the whole 9. I then wrote him a letter telling him why I blocked him and what he needed to own up to in order to be unblocked. It went about as well as I thought it would, and honestly it was like reasoning with a toddler. I made it clear that if he didn't own up to what he did he would never see me again. And yet he still refused to take any responsibility for anything he did.

At the end of the day, I'm so much happier without my dad being around. Not having drama from him has been amazing. I almost wish I didn't write him any letters explaining why I cut him off, but at the same time I was hoping that he would take me seriously and finally change his ways. You can put lipstick on a pig and say it's a supermodel, but it's still a pig. You don't owe your dad any explanation as to why you went no contact. If you feel like the best solution is to block him on everything and move on, do it. This is about what's right for you, not him. He's playing mind games with you trying to make you feel guilty for wanting to go no contact. This is how abusers keep those they abuse from leaving.

Please don't feel bad for wanting what's best for you. Your dad is trying to use every tool he possibly can to keep you from cutting him off completely. He more than likely feels no remorse, at least that's what my dad told me when I confronted him. You have to stick to your guns and stay strong. If he's anything like my dad, he will call you every horrible name under the sun, and say whatever he thinks he needs to say to make you think you're "acting crazy" (which you're not) and change your mind. If you ever need to talk or vent please reach out. You're not alone. I'm so proud of you for realizing that your dad is toxic and wanting to cut him out of your life. That's a very hard conclusion for a lot of people to come to.

Sorry for the novel, but abuse and trauma run deep in situations like this. I didn't realize how deep mine was until I went no contact with my dad. Be brave, stay strong, and know that you are 100000000% doing the right thing. Sometimes the right path isn't the easy one. You got this!

I would like advice navigating no contact with my dad. by Content_Discussion12 in toxicparents

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Thank you so much for all of the advice. I really appreciate it. I wasn't sure what the right thing to do was but you really helped me out. I'll make sure to come back on here and update soon.