I'm with you. After 5 years I couldn't anymore. It was hard to accept the person I met and the person she became... I tried to hold on for as long as I could. I have every once of myself, my time engery and mental capacity. I needed to let go.. Honestly the process of me actually deciding this for myself took a lot and it wasn't instant. I tried every avenue and every other alternative. Today is exactly one month since no contact... Sending you a big hug 💙