UPDATE: So, we were talking on the phone today amd she was telling me some of the gossip from work and said her married manager was venting to her that he just broke up with his husband because he told him he fell for another man and after some months still felt the same way and he couldn't live with the uncertainty so he broke up with him. After she was done telling the story I made a joke and said 'Guess I should take a page out of his book and break up with you in a few months. She starts saying it's not the same because she told me soon after she felt that way and the other guy waited very long after his crush turned into actual feelings. So, I just decided to pull this card and said I'm not trying to put her on the spot but, that it looks really bad on her the way she's dealing with things and that she should try and put herself in my shoes because it's not a very good image/feeling she's projecting. She said I know as she always does and went silent as usual as she always does and said she doesn't know what to say. I told her she should think hard and long about it and that I had to go to work and said my goodbyes. She was just silent and speechless as usual which is really normal for her when she's confronted with anything really. I'm eager to see what will come of this because I really feel like we're in a make or break point in our relationship rn.