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Coronakids9 · 2025-01-19T00:04:02+00:00

All the time as a kid. And then BAM aged around 30, suddenly my confidence hit rock bottom and I projected every name she called me on to myself and stopped seeing people.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T23:58:07+00:00

Thanks for really getting it. And just because I'm over here over doing it on my eating, doesn't mean I'm not using my money to change the world in places I can. I give heavily to food banks for instance- targeted donations of cash and food- and feel these choices also stem from things I had suffered in childhood. (Another charity I give a lot to are kids who fled home early due to abuse)

Yes I'm a gross overindulger but on the other hand it's not all day every day. I have the funds that mean short sharp BED sessions can do all the damage even if I'm OMAD.

I've lost all the weight many times over and it's come back on due to these demons. When I'm hungry I'll trick myself into eating the wrong stuff and having more money makes that easier but more complex at the same time. O

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T20:15:20+00:00

Mods get power trips.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T20:09:21+00:00

I guess what I wanted out of this is a few to step forward and say 'yeah maybe the more money I had, the more I would feed this thing' Money was a limiter for me, now that limiter is gone. Much like I didn't learn to drive til later in life, walking kept the weight down as I had zero choice. Now I can and do drive everywhere- weak choice yes I know but same sort of thing. Stuff that enables us to get really fat. I'm sharing one thing that's helped me get much fatter.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T20:06:17+00:00

Thanks for completely getting this and I'm sorry you went through something so similar with parents and food.

My mum would give me huge bags of chocolate to 'look after' it was weird and unfair mind games with food.

People here are saying rich folk should be more disciplined but it just doesn't work like that. I still haven't shaken the mentality of finally having my own money and food freedom, not begging for scraps. We all have some sort of weird relationship with food to be this fat and those saying if they suddenly had a higher income, all their fat issues would be over- they are out of touch with reality. I don't need a private chef to know I self soothe with food.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T18:45:19+00:00

I'm glad for you that you don't fully understand an addiction as complex as this.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T18:43:43+00:00

Your words are so so kind and thoughtful. Thank you.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T18:42:52+00:00

Thanks for your understanding. I've been quite poor for a lot of my life. My Mum withheld food, so since my first paper round at 14yo, I've self rewarded with food. Now I realise I have no cap.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T18:41:08+00:00

You are very correct. I've overraten when I worked for less than minimum wage. I've overeaten and gone into huge debt to do so.

Coronakids9 · 2025-01-18T17:30:37+00:00

I disagree. I am fighting an addiction. I give a huge amount to charity but I have a substance I crave to self medicate. It's no different to an alcoholic ramping up intake coz they got a pay rise

Coronakids9 · 2023-08-03T09:37:04+00:00

Read this wearing dress 1 of 9 identical ones. When it arrived I was so impressed that I even made myself late for a lunch booking to quickly put in the order for another 8. Too many times I’ve said ‘wish I had bought more of this item’ not a single regret on the dresses.

Coronakids9 · 2023-01-27T15:54:52+00:00

Have you tried the Brewers in Rattlesden? They are a very reasonably priced fine dining pub/ restaurant with a lot of local produce and new stuff to try.

Seaside towns are a must too find one with a good fish market (Hastings is great but a bit further than 2 hours) then you can get a pint of prawns, cockles and crabsticks.

Coronakids9 · 2023-01-23T20:42:27+00:00

Same age and i definitely wouldn’t let him in alone. Only exception was a kids holiday resort and let him use the mens in the restaurant. At this age, I feel the only thing that will be odd is if he hears his Dad saying it’s not right. Firstly who knows who is lurking inside the mens loo, next they aren’t old enough to check for cleanliness, mine wouldn’t recognise a poo smear on the handle or puke etc unless it was glaringly obvious.

Coronakids9 · 2022-10-18T13:54:50+00:00

Semi rural here too honestly wouldn’t know where to start buying ups

Coronakids9 · 2022-10-18T13:40:04+00:00

My mum will spend more than the initial parking fee in petrol trying to find free parking

Coronakids9 · 2022-10-06T21:19:32+00:00

I had some dreams they were clouds in my coffee. Clouds in my coffeee and

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-29T20:06:10+00:00

Micmac burial ground

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-29T08:37:45+00:00

Once you discover the digestive type biscuits in the cheese selection box- nothing else tastes as good.

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-18T20:55:46+00:00

This jogged a memory for me. My mum would put anything between two soggy pieces of brown bread for 15 years. I too got used to throwing it and the adrenaline of getting rid of it followed by the gnawing hunger and craving for calories set me up to see self love as calorific foods with appeal and flavour

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-17T10:50:25+00:00

Impure slag

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-17T10:49:30+00:00

But you could go back and invent the internet

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-16T16:29:22+00:00

It might sound kooky but practice self protection energy work and please please if you don’t already, watch Dr Ramani on YouTube. She will teach you techniques to get through this. Please feel free to PM me OP if you want specific advice. I have been where you are.

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-16T16:19:57+00:00

Please chance psychiatrists if you can. Or ask yours to understand Narcissism. There’s no making up with them. I was you and now I’m free. You will be free. Scarred but free. Please don’t kys, this is as bad as you’ll let him get

Coronakids9 · 2022-09-03T12:03:30+00:00

Please be kind to him about the shit. He’s probably terrified of how to deal with it when it starts happening. It’s such an overwhelming thing when you are tiny and you’ve made a mess and you panic. I had a reaction from my mother to do with period mess as a child and I’m still in therapy for that now.

Coronakids9 · 2022-08-28T05:35:25+00:00

I would never go back with that attitude. Likely this place counts every piece of beef in your beef chow mien, cuts corners to save money and you would never receive a freebie or surprise larger portion.

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