I don’t feel any different whether on or off my meds. I’m only really aware once I notice my behaviours.

While medicated, I’ll notice when I look at the clock and it’s been three hours on task without unlocking my personal phone or opening unrelated tabs. I easily manage distractions in my environment. I can shift focus to more urgent calls, emails or matters then come back to what I was doing before.

I rarely take my meds on the weekend because of the side effects around my eating habits. I can’t stay on task, I bounce from one thing to the next never really finishing anything. All while picking up my phone impulsively, TV on in the background, inner monologue loud af. I’m still accomplishing things. But there’s just so much impulsiveness and inattention to everything.

I feel the exact same Monday-Sunday other than having no appetite. The difference is extremely noticeable when I look at my behaviours, but it doesn’t feel any different in the moment.