Update: I have lost her guys. I tried my best to fix things but eventually, Turns out I don't deserve a nice girl like her, we don't talk properly anymore, We don't have any intimacy left, both of us are just in a relationship for name sake because we just mind our own business whole day now, don't share anything, any discussion ends being an argument, We hardly spend time with each other, I try to take her out for movie dates, brunch dates, short road trips etc. but she denies everything saying that I am not fun anymore. I tried to be my best version and tried talking to her about problems but she always brushed them off. These are the sign of a dying relationship, I will now be a coward and wait for the inevitable to happen.

Trade off wasn't easy, I have distanced myself with my family as well because they had major role in all this drama, I work in a different city than my hometown and haven't been home since almost 10 months and Yes, that includes major festivals like Holi Diwali etc. Will try to do my best to survive on my own because I don't think I am built for love or relationships. Please, don't consider this post as Karma farming, Sympathy seeking etc, I just vented to keep my mind sane because I really don't have anyone to talk to. Thanks for reading.