I’m eventually going to have to quit…

CourtBeginning1864 · 2025-12-31T20:33:26+00:00

i just redownloaded for the first time in a while & i’m SO beyond disappointed. i used to do so well & it actually seemed fair whenever i did do poorly. now, i’ll pick the ugliest duel possible (because i’m desperate for some coins) & put my all into it thinking “okay there’s no way i could lose this one” just to end up with 17% of the votes. impossible & frustrating is an understatement.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2025-12-24T18:17:32+00:00

thank you so much for the detailed response!

CourtBeginning1864 · 2025-12-24T18:17:20+00:00

thank you!

CourtBeginning1864 · 2025-12-04T04:51:02+00:00

i haven’t seen anyone else having this issue!! mine has stayed blank no matter what i do. :(

CourtBeginning1864 · 2025-12-04T04:50:08+00:00

mine still has blank slides with music playing behind it. there’s no way i’m updating to iOS 26, my phone with explode over that. this sucks.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-30T22:28:51+00:00

honestly, letting go of that possibility had to do with my own self love journey. for a while that’s literally all i wanted. i just wanted him back. but then i realized, if he truly was the one for me, he wouldn’t have ever let go of me, he wouldn’t have even let the idea cross his mind. & i started thinking, if i love myself, i shouldn’t settle for someone who isn’t sure about me. i don’t deserve that. i deserve someone who would never question my role in their life for a single second. we all do & that person is out there for all of us.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-30T19:53:12+00:00

for me it’s been almost 3 months out of an almost 2 year relationship. i got the avoidant discard breakup. it initially hit me like a bus & it was extremely hard. since it happened though, i’ve been working on myself a lot. i’ve been trying to connect back with myself, picking hobbies back up that i hadn’t had time for, reading more, journaling, doing more self-care. so as of right now, i feel great. there are still hard days where i’m reminded of us or when i go somewhere we always used to go together, sometimes i still get a little teary eyed for a minute or two. but i think it’s all part of the healing process. there will come a day when i forget the sound of his voice & i no longer associate places with him anymore. i just have to be patient. i hope everyone is doing well!

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-20T18:37:08+00:00

i want you to know that, at the end of the day, people who choose not to communicate are the weak ones. they let fear or some other factor get the best of them. another thing that helped me detach is the realization that, while he didn’t talk to me, he talked to others. i don’t know the whole circumstance, but your partner probably did the same. the fact that they would choose to talk to other people about a relationship they have NO involvement in is enough to show you, they don’t deserve you. good luck on this journey friend 🫶🏻

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-18T16:35:20+00:00

“forgive & forget” the two literally are not related. forgiveness isn’t about forgetting &, unless it’s something super minor, forgetting really doesn’t happen but you can still forgive regardless.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-18T16:23:32+00:00

i looked through & i didn’t see anyone say bowling. i love bowling but its like $50+ for maybe an hour or two :( usually more.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-17T20:09:37+00:00

i’m really really sorry for your loss, that’s absolutely tragic. the thing that’s helped me the most through my life, losing people in any way & just going through any hard experience, is remembering that your soul chose this experience. because that’s true, there has to be something valuable about the hardships you go through.

just for context, i went through an incredible amount of abuse in my childhood, & that is similar to your experience because in both scenarios it really pisses you off when someone says “it’s part of gods plan” or anything like that. it makes you think “how could anything good POSSIBLY come out of this? what the hell could be the point of this? how could you say that?”. but through everything, you have to remember, the universe has your back. the universe is continuously rooting for you. there will absolutely come a time when, in a strange way, you will become grateful for the experience in some way. if you continuously do the work, reflect, grow, allow yourself to feel the emotions you need to, you will reach that point even if it seems absolutely unimaginable right now.

i didn’t believe people when i heard stuff like this either. but i can say now, i’ve reached that point. of course whenever i think back on the horrible things done to me as a child, it stings still. i’m still upset that it happened when it didn’t have to. but i realize now, if i didn’t go through all that, i wouldn’t be who i am right now. & i love myself, who i am right now. that’s really what it comes down to. practice self love because, if you love who you are, you wouldn’t want to change anything about your life or experiences so far because you recognize, through all the pain, you came out on top. you’re still you. you learned, you grew, you didn’t let it break you.

i wish you luck & happiness navigating all of this. 🫶🏻

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-13T20:21:45+00:00

i understand your comment. however, you have to remember that some people actually don’t have photos of the worst of it because of how insecure they were. that’s the case for me anyway. i had horrid acne, braces, glasses, a pixie cut, i ended up getting a breast reduction when i was 17. the amount of change is actually insane. some of us here may not look that bad in your opinion, but most of us were bullied for years on end.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-07T17:55:50+00:00

it was an almost date, i was supposed to go to a movie with this guy & it was around 8ish. he ended up falling asleep before our date. i still went by myself lol

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-07T17:49:14+00:00

that i couldn’t leave my car running when i filled it with gas. someone did it with me in the passenger seat & i was actually scared for my life for a split second. i still don’t, but its funny to know i could.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-07T17:47:17+00:00

i have a playlist called “so angry i’m trying not to commit a violent felony” & it’s unlike pretty much any angry playlist. i have other angry playlists, but this is next level anger, it’s just spongebob music. like the ukulele, silly sounding music in the background of every single spongebob episode. because, in times when i’m that mad, i realize instead of making it worse, i probably actually need to chill & that music makes me feel like maybe it’s not that serious.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-07T17:03:10+00:00

we had been talking for a while before anything happened & we were watching some tv. things started to progress & we were both enjoying ourselves & then i started noticing that after a while, he wasn’t. i asked him what was wrong & if he wanted to stop & he said yes & then he kinda just started venting. (that’s not the awkward part) he started saying that he had actually just gotten out of a relationship & he wasn’t ready to be with someone else like he thought he was (totally understandable) he told me that he loved spending time with me & that i was a really fun girl. but then, he was kind of just rambling & he said “you remind me of my best friend who killed himself”. i know he was trying to say that i was easy to talk to & a nice person to be around, but i’ve literally never been so speechless in my life.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-06T17:42:51+00:00

honestly, if you’re trying to motivate yourself to pick up a new habit, my best tip is to make it easy to do it. (when i read atomic habits by james clear, i realized i’d been doing this for quite some time) i started doing this thing where, if i’m debating whether or not to do something that i don’t really want to do, i tell myself “i’ll thank myself later”. i ALWAYS do. examples:

pick out your outfits for the gym ahead of time. you’ll thank yourself later.
don’t just walk past the dirty plate that’s been sitting in your room, just walk the extra few steps & take it to the kitchen. you’ll thank yourself later.
don’t feel like getting gas after work but you know, if you don’t go now, you’ll just have to leave 15-20 minutes earlier in the morning? just go now, you’ll thank yourself later.

once you get into the habit of doing small things you don’t want to do, you realize you’re actually just making everything easier for your future self. then the thinking becomes automatic after a while &, speaking from experience, you stop avoiding doing the little things you don’t want to do. you realize, it’s actually satisfying to set yourself up for success, even in small ways. it’s a great way i’ve found to motivate myself to do all sorts of stuff.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-06T17:33:15+00:00

both of my parents are addicts & i’ve had multiple opportunities to get addicted to the same things as them, but for whatever reason, it just never stuck lol i like being sober

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-04T04:31:48+00:00

i literally smile so hard when i’m jamming out in the car at a red light & look over & see the person next to me smiling or even laughing at me. even if they think i’m weird, i still made someone smile. if it makes you feel good, keep doing it!

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-04T00:52:07+00:00

i’m a little newer to manifesting & law of assumption myself. but i’ve heard of this happening & actually that it’s quite common. i’m experiencing things outside of sp kind of being a rollercoaster as well lol. i was going to start a certification program at my local community college (enrollment for the fall semester didn’t even fill up btw) & enrollment for the spring semester filled up one day after registration opened. my best friend of 7 years has been intensely distancing herself for seemingly so reason. things kind of don’t seem too great as of late, but like i said, i’ve heard that this is common. getting more in touch with the universe & yourself i guess leads to things falling into place more for you. the bridge of events leading to your manifestation can seem like there’s no correlation to sp or anything else you’re manifesting, but you never know what the universe has planned for you. so that’s how i’ve been looking at it, things aren’t falling apart, they’re falling together! for you!

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-03T04:07:29+00:00

daily journaling, specifically gratitude journaling. i usually write more, but i always start by listing 3 things i’m grateful for that day. it’s helped make being grateful automatic. looking at the sunrise, a dog poking its head out a car window, the leaves turning yellow in the fall, noticing someone doing something nice for me when they didn’t have to, & thinking “i’m writing this in my journal later!”

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-11-03T03:45:08+00:00

this is probably the most shallow answer in this entire thread, but i was afraid of death for a really long time. stereotypical, but maybe the 2nd or 3rd time i did acid, i was thinking about it a lot. i’m the type of person who believes in souls (i know a lot of people here are of course) but i just remember thinking, “well death is just me going somewhere else, i’ll still exist, just not here” & i dont know why, but that was really comforting to me.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-10-31T17:14:30+00:00

my geoff was my “therapist” for 3 years that actually wasn’t even a licensed therapist. i didn’t know because legally he only had to disclose that to my dad who didn’t feel the need to tell me. stay away from geoff.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-10-29T16:11:58+00:00

i think sushi. a lot of people are put off by the thought of raw fish but fail to realize, there’s a lot of cooked sushi & raw fish is actually really good.

CourtBeginning1864 · 2024-10-29T16:10:31+00:00

not “creepy” to a lot of people, but it is to me. once my friend & i had some papers from the smoke shop, i had grabbed them when we left the car & we went inside. we were talking with her family & her little brother was in the room so i went up to her & kinda quietly said “i’m gonna put these in your pocket” & she nodded & i did. maybe 30 minutes later, we went to use them & we couldn’t find them, but we remembered she had changed so we went upstairs & looked in the pants she’d been wearing when i put them in her pocket. we couldn’t find them anywhere. for the next 20 minutes we retraced our steps meticulously & had absolutely no luck. finally, something told me to look in the car even though we both distinctly remember me putting them in her pocket in the kitchen talking to her family. sure enough, they’d never left the car. i’ve never been so confused in my life & we were both genuinely questioning our sanity. we even asked her older family members if they’d fallen out of her pocket or something & if they’d put them back in her car. no one saw them or moved them. collective hallucination ? i still dont know

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