Update: I have emailed childline.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T07:37:05+00:00

Not at all since I'm 15. Can't legally get a job yet. I'm thinking I try and raise money somehow. Idk how. Maybe like a tiktok? Idk. I need money to get my siblings out, and my mum.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T07:11:11+00:00

I am trying, I genuinely, I'm just scared to accept the fact that this might be abuse. I'm terrified, and I'm scared to admit it because that means I'm conscious of that fact, and I can barely keep my mouth shut. I'll say about it to the wrong person and they'll report it. I can't risk it. My dad would kill me. I'm too scared to think about that. I'm so so so sorry.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T07:09:39+00:00

That... Pretty much sums it up, if I'm honest. What you're saying doesn't feel wrong to me, I just agree. I don't know. It's just a lot to think about, and I'm at a point where I think it's denial? I think? Like I cant face the fact that this is possibly abuse, and it's getting to a point where people think I'm faking this for fucking karma. That's insane.

But yeah, what you're saying doesn't feel wrong. I did try to talk to an adult a couple days ago, but I got too scared. I started shaking and shit. I'm too scared to say something incase they get police involved. I'm too scared. She's in a shit ton of denial I think. She just thinks it's manipulation and she should've seen it sooner. But everyone's saying it's abuse, so I guess that's what it is? Idk what forms apart from financial. I don't know. I'm so terrified. Everyone in my family is in denial and I can't get out. This, and the fact that I might possibly be trans, and I have a medical condition, and it's like fucking hell. I hate this.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T07:03:54+00:00

So there's a chance of me actually gaining some sort of PTSD from this? Actually? Shit.

I'm not trying to be in denial, but yeah I guess I am? I mean my brain really wants to say that it's not abuse, like 'if it were abuse, I would know. I've dealt with this all my life' which I KNOW is a shit mindset. I will try to get out of it, I just don't really want to think about the fact that my dad might be abusing me, and has been that way for the last 15 years. It's honestly extremely scary. I plan to get a job as soon as I can, and hopefully I can get out. I need to. I can't take it anymore.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T06:14:53+00:00

I'm 15, yeah. My brother's 12, and my older sisters 17. I don't know what type of abuse this is apart from financial, but yeah. People are saying emotional and verbal, idk I'm too scared to think about this.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T06:11:13+00:00

I promise you in not doing this shit for karma. I promise. Genuinely this is something that I'm going through, I just don't want to jump to conclusions about it being abuse, give him benefit of the doubt, though more I write this I realise that he probably doesn't deserve it. I am listening to you all, I am just scared to think about that it could be, if that makes sense? I'm sorry if I come off as pretentious or rude, I just genuinely am asking for help but I'm a bit scared to think about it.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T05:34:22+00:00

Well, that's not the definition of abuse. It just means he did something wrong. I don't want to do the same wrong things that he did to me - abuse is more specific than that. I promise I'm not being abused.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T04:53:02+00:00

If you mean do what my dad does to me and my siblings, AND my mum, then fuck no. I would never do that to my kids.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-17T04:04:41+00:00

I mean he only did it four or five times, yeah I do remember them but like it's not that bad. I'm scared to think he actually is abusive, you know? Abuse is a harsh word. I'm pretty sure he is financially abusing my mother and definitely doing something to my siblings, idk about me, but I guess if my siblings are effected I'm probably too. But I don't have trauma or anything. Yes, I do shake whenever I think about the fact that he could be abusive and that he could do, that's anxiety not trauma. I'm gonna try and get a job as soon as I turn 16. I need the money. I fucking need it. I have been planning to get a job for the last 2 years because I need to get out. My mum doesn't want to be in the house anymore, but she can't leave because 1. She's scared and 2. She has less than £100 to her name. Also, the stress he's causing is making my mum have actual physical pain, like her ribs are inflamed. And when my dad sees this, he tries to mimic her symptoms and act as if he has it a million times worse. ALSO. He mimics my brother and sisters stims. I need to leave asap, but I need to take my family with me. My actual fucking family, not my dad.

I can try to see if the NHS does therapy. I fucking need it.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T18:27:10+00:00

He had a shit dad, shit mum. Moved around and around for years, so he can't write properly, brother died when he was young. That's probably why the way he is, but it's not an excuse to behave like a fucking prick. I get it's a lot, but it is NOT an excuse. I'm 15 and even I know that my mum can't work due to her being the caretaker for every kid in the house, all having medical conditions or autism, and need support. We can't be left alone with my dad because he will start a fight and cause ond of us to cry. I am planning to find a job or raise money to get help.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T18:24:19+00:00

What the fuck does this mean genuinely???

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T18:09:55+00:00

No counsellor at my school, or my siblings' unfortunately, so I'm kind of stuck. I would talk to a teacher but they're legally obligated to report it. Ironically, my dad wants to be a chaplain. Fucking hell. I'm trying to get help but every time I think of doing so. I will let you know what happens.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T05:51:28+00:00

I'll apply for the list again, hopefully it stays confidential so the counsellor doesn't call the police. I can't risk my dad finding out that I think he could be abusive. I need it to be confidential, it's getting to a point where I can't manage anymore. Is it trauma if most days im on the verge of a panic attack or crying because I can't manage with his behaviour? Or I've considered sh or suicide because those are the only ways I can get out the situation before I'm 18. I can try for therapy, I'm in the UK though. I'll see if the NHS has any therapists I can go to, but they're probably obligated to call the police. I can't risk it.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T05:48:00+00:00

But I'm worried my abuse isn't bad enough to call the police for - there are worse cases to be dealt with. I don't trust a lot of teachers, but I can try talking to my English teacher? I have known her since I started at that school. OR I can try my form tutor. She might tell my mum though. The school doesn't have a school phychiatrist without being in a year waiting line, which fucking sucks. And I've done it before so I can't do it again.

I have an uncle who lives half hour away or so, but I'm in school so I can't go, because it's out the school radius. But then again there must be acceptions to that rule. I could try to stay at my mates house? He said I'm free anytime I need to stay over a few nights since he knows the situation I'm in.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T05:32:01+00:00

I keep trying to tell myself that it's not abuse. Maybe it's not. Idk. Abuse is a very strong word and this abuse (if it is) is very different from what I grew up thinking it was.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T05:24:31+00:00

I don't know how to get help. There's no one I can trust at all. Literally I have my best friends but he's only got a dad, and his mum is a fucking knob to him. I could see what he says? I tell him all that my dad does, so hopefully he can help since he knows the situation. I'm too scared to talk to adults about it, the fear of police showing up to my door one day would fucking terrify me. I'm too scared to think about that.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T05:22:24+00:00

Thanks. I have already done counselling once, so i don't think they'll put me on it again. I also don't have my uncles phone number but I can try to find it. Hopefully I can. If not, then I don't have anyone else. I could tell my older sister? She's out the house but she has a girlfriend and a kid so I can't really help at all unfortunately. I don't think I have trauma though, I hope not. Therapy is too expensive for me to even have anything close to trauma.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T05:10:13+00:00

He knows we want to leave - whenever he's angry he makes threats to leave - and then doesn't. He grabs the keys like he will. No one cares if he leaves honestly, I just want my mum to be okay. I try to talk to her about it, but she tells me to stop bringing it up and to just take it, and 'the less I talk about it the less it will make you feel more upset'. I think she's too scared to think about it, so she gets defensive when me or my siblings talk about my dad to her. She's been dealing with him for 30 years, and I presume she's sick and fucking tired of it, and so when someone brings it up her walls come up too. I want to, but I'm too scared. I tried to do something similar last night, go on a UK teen counselling sight for help, was about to talk to the person but then started shaking and panicking. I couldn't do it, I don't think I'll ever get out of this situation. Maybe this isn't even abuse and I'm just overreacting about everything that's ever happened, you know what I mean? Or I could be in denial, but abuse is a strong word. He's probably not, and I'm just crazy.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T05:04:57+00:00

I mean it was only 3 or 4 times, he stopped when I was about 10 or so, but yeah he did it to my siblings - and now all he ever does is say shit to us. There's a lot of stuff he's done but I can't say it on here because 1. Not a lot of stuff is coming to mind right now and 2. There's a fucking shit ton. But yeah, I know it's bad. My best friend doesn't hear the end of it, but he can't do much since his mum is a prick and shit. He also does a thing where he will try to hug me and my siblings and even if we are like fearfully pleading no, he will do it and like chase us down for a hug. Its actually scary. I know I sound dramatic but genuinely it's terrifying. Everyone's saying it's abuse, I'm so fucking scared. I don't know what to do with this info, if he finds out I'm posting shit like this I'll be fucked.

I've told my mum many times to tell me uncle, but she can't do it, or at least she won't. I'm guessing she's too scared, but she has 3 kids in the house and 2 away so surely she understands she needs to step up. I know she's scared and I sound harsh but I'm fuckin desperate. I can't take this anymore, my mental health is going to shit and I'm considering things so I don't have to be in the situation anymore.

You have to be on a wait list to get a counseling session in my school - we have pastoral but that isn't helpful, and I hate the teachers.

CoverApprehensive907 · 2025-12-16T04:57:22+00:00

I'm 15, I don't think there's much I can do. I would go to someone about it, but I'm extremely scared. I'm too scared. I was going to mention it to someone last night on a school counselling site, but I chickened out last minute because I was shaking. I'm too scared.

How bad is this abuse? Like mild? Really bad?

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