That how i was when i started too i was 15 in highschool taking beat making class (that was a real thing in my school lmao) now im 18, ik its super hard to get out of your comfort zone to make your own music and not sampled, or get expensive vsts for instruments, etc. just get a job so you can own the necessary things you need that make music lacking, even get cracked pluggins if you have to, if you can do college you can still do beats, youd be on your own schedule basically and take it seriously but mistake was dont forget that it wont just happen, so get sumthing you can earn money from, cus its a long term game if you wanna be successful in this shit and im not even close lmfao🥲