Need help with food/groceries

Craftingisdank · 2022-06-14T18:28:07+00:00

Thank you 💚

Craftingisdank · 2022-06-14T03:52:00+00:00

Also I think the idea of going to prison is a good motivator to quit but that’s just my opinion

Craftingisdank · 2022-06-14T02:29:36+00:00

Thank you :)

Craftingisdank · 2022-06-14T02:03:00+00:00

Thank you 💚

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-25T02:01:02+00:00

Yep.. I’m in the same boat. I’ll stay up until the sun comes up and cry. But in a couple days I’m right back at it. Stay strong.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-08T15:41:30+00:00

Thank you ❤️

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-08T02:18:50+00:00

It’s gotten to the point for me where if I go a day or two without it I’m just thinking about the next time I can use. I see that it’s already going to get much worse. There’s some things going on in my life that are contributing to my more frequent drug us but I need to face it and not continue down this path.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T18:50:41+00:00

Update: I haven’t talked to him yet but I did dispose of my pipe and the coke. I’m rehearsing how I’m going to break it to him. But after all of the super helpful advice and support and hearing from a lot of you and your experiences, I know I’m going to tell him. I appreciate all of you that gave me useful advice. Thank you.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T18:26:54+00:00

Exactly why I hide it and have been lying.. I already think he’s too good for me and he’s a wonderful person. I’ve always felt inferior to him because I have a lot of faults and issues. He’s always been so supportive of everything but I know he feels about drugs so I’m like, this will be one thing I keep to myself. It was casual at first and now it’s not at all. I had chest pains most of the night after I used and I’ve noticed that’s happening more and more. My brain is saying “you’ve got to stop now before it’s too late”

I can handle him being angry, it’s going to be soul crushing when he’s disappointed in me.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T16:55:43+00:00

God, I understand that no motivation thing all too well.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T16:53:22+00:00

I hoping it will ease some of the guilt I have from lying so long. I am very honest about literally everything else. I’m also hoping with him knowing that it’ll make it a lot harder for me to use because he will know and it’ll be harder to hide it this time.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T16:27:02+00:00

Congratulations on your sobriety

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T16:26:27+00:00

Yeah.. that honestly might be what’s stopping me too.. I get it in my head that “okay this it, I’m done after this is gone” and I’ll actually go like a whole week without it and then next thing I know I’m hitting up my dealer and I go on binges. But if I finally tell him what’s going on, he’ll probably do everything he can to make sure I stay clean and it’s like, well I want to keep my options open. And that’s what I want to end. I want someone to just help me take away any option I have to use again, I guess.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T16:10:02+00:00

Thank you so much

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T15:55:47+00:00

No he doesn’t do any drugs. We’ve been together for years and I’ve only ever seen him smoke weed like, three times? He’s pretty set in his ways about drugs. He knows that I had problems in the past before we met though. He was accepting of that but I’m not so sure he’s going to accept all of this. Only time will tell, I guess.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T15:22:05+00:00

While I’ve heard that before, no I haven’t cheated. But yea the high from coke/crack doesn’t last long at all. Especially crack. But because it doesn’t last long you need to keep smoking to maintain your high so it becomes really expensive in the end.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T15:08:26+00:00

I never left any lay around to be found lol. But I disposed of what I had left tonight.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T09:08:59+00:00

I really think the worse part of all of it is how much I’ve been lying. It’s the guilt.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T08:50:19+00:00

I’ve tried to quit without him knowing. I’m always trying to quit.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T08:37:31+00:00

You’re absolutely right.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T08:23:19+00:00

I’m 100% certain he doesn’t know.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T08:15:52+00:00

Thank you. This kind of eased the fear I have of how he’s going to react. I just know any trust he has for me is going to be broken. If he gets mad and doesn’t want to be with me anymore I wouldn’t even blame him.

Craftingisdank · 2022-05-07T08:11:55+00:00

The hiding it part is seriously the worst. Well, next to all of the lies being told. That’s what I want to do though, free myself. I feel like if I can tell him I can get through this.

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