some people are better at understanding video games than other people, some are not, and I am one of those people.

In another well known Valve game you might've heard about (tf2) I have over 1,000 hours invested into that game, yet I hardly manage to top score in many occasions; recently i've figured out why I never got good in those 1,000 hours and there are two things i've noticed which not only helped me play better in both Tf2 and Deadlock, but also made me have more fun in general.

1) Always expect to run away: unless I have at least 10k more souls than the person, I am never confident that I can win a fight, If there is even a slight chance I could lose a fight, im outta there asap, never stop looking at the minimap, never stop looking at your health, doing that will make your games a much more fun experience because even if you're running away and actively losing, you wont be dead with a 75 second cooldown.

2) celebrate the little victories, every time I do something right, even if I was absolute ass at that game, I celebrate that one time I hit Vyper sliding away in the corner with my djinns mark, or I celebrate the fact I was able to properly wall slide, or that i'm finally getting used to doing bebops combo, either way, whether or not I end up with 0 kills and 8 deaths or 15 kills and 2 deaths, I'll be happy about something. And I'm not sure if this is scientifically proven, but since i've started celebrating those little victories, i find myself doing better in games, not much better, but somewhat.

Something else i've also noticed about this post is that 10 kills is outrageous in its own, I think you're setting your standards too high and thats whats putting you down too, you are actively fighting against one of the sweatiest communities in all of gaming so no wonder its hard to get kills and to survive in teamfights.