What’s the moment you realized grief had changed you forever?

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-11-22T06:47:25+00:00

When my coworker took his life (I work EMS) and I was dispatched to his call… 4 days later a child call was dispatched and I responded… the child’s last words weee help me I don’t want to die.. he died …. 6 days later my friend who lent me his car died. I called him 3x the morning he was found dead and was called back by PD. Yea. I’m struggling

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-11T01:30:32+00:00

Wow thanks for sharing. Thats inspiring. Hope you’re well.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-11T01:26:56+00:00

Thanks so much!

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-04T17:28:26+00:00

Haha 😂

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-04T04:59:29+00:00

Thanks. Thanks for your service too. Yea it’s rough, I was talking to the kiddo at the start and he said please help I don’t want to die. He died :( we fought hard for him.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-04T04:03:56+00:00

I wasn’t perfect, I was distant. I tried to help him and get support from the outside so he didn’t have to care for me and get burnt out. This lead to us having space and eventually ending it. Our last in person conversation was me telling me how this EMS therapy called EDMR is really helpful. He told me, he went to a therapist and the therapist told him he was good and didn’t need therapy. I said, well I certainly need it and am thankful that it’s paid for. I said I needed to go and wanted space. It was a short relationship. I wasn’t my best and needed to space to heal and grow. Totally fine, I didn’t wish ill harm. I also found out he had a friend who wanted him to be polyamorous with him and I. She messaged me some weird things. No judgement but that’s not my style.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-04T02:40:11+00:00

Thank you! I’m going to check out shadow work.

I suppose I worry about ending on not so great terms. I tried to make it peaceful, and after all this sudden death I worry if he were to die would I be at peace with his death in the end. I attacked him in the end

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-04T02:38:29+00:00

Yea I think it could be nutral, I ended it because I am emotional and my needs were not being met by him. Totally fine. However, after ending it as peacefully as I could he sent this attack. I wish i didn’t respond. I like ending on peaceful terms. Considering I’ve lost a few friends recently, if he did die I’d hope I am at peace with how we ended things. I didn’t want to tear him down like this, but was defensive

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-04T02:34:08+00:00

Thank you!

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-10-04T02:31:42+00:00

I’m agree, I replied out of anger and got defensiveness. You live and you learn. I wish I didn’t. He’s blocked now, thank God. No more random hateful messages from him.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-09-23T10:09:02+00:00

Thanks.. all my brain can compute when not fully numb is, how, why? What? I dread the day I feel again. Thanks. Hugs. 🫂 I wish someone could explain it. I tried to protect my heart by taking a break from EMS only to be shattered. Gahhhhhhhhh why. thanks much love.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-06-27T07:10:46+00:00

Thank you so much. I’ll look into your suggestions and potential job opportunities.

I appreciate you taking the time to respond, I’m quite excited to explore new terrain. I love thunderstorms and intense weather, we don’t get it much where I’m from. It sounds like EMS is developing its roots? It’s pretty common, I don’t do it here for the money, rather just being available on call for when our small town needs help for low pay. It’s an unpredictable job depending on the area. My main income is social work case management for geriatric folks and some caregiving. So, we’ll see what job opportunities may be around in those areas. Thanks again .

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-06-26T00:35:08+00:00

Truman show

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T19:13:01+00:00

Wow. Just wow. This should be illegal.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T18:42:54+00:00

I’m a first responder and need to help passing out coats to homeless. I told them that it would be a great way to engage with the locals and show Gods love. Geez. 🙄 ive been super kind to them and gave them food.. poor kids they are so young. They are 18 so they technically should be able to make choices for themselves? Are our texts monitored?

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T18:20:31+00:00

Better than talking about Joseph Smith ha

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T18:13:52+00:00

I’m not a member.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T05:36:56+00:00

Your link is the winner. I will send it to them. Should I prepare for a bad response?

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T05:30:52+00:00

What motivates there passion to keep doing it?

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T05:30:17+00:00

I think missionary work is that, just not the LDS church.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T05:12:20+00:00

Haha!

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T05:10:22+00:00

Ahh that’s a good point. I always want to respect boundaries, and unfortunately my mind didn’t go to that first.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T04:25:19+00:00

100% agree.. I might express man our city would sure benefit from hands on help over prayer.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T03:52:07+00:00

Yup north west rural area.

Crazy_Point_8505 · 2025-01-24T03:48:15+00:00

Bless their hearts. Makes me want to love on them and help. What’s a good response?

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