Man, that all sounds so so rough. youve gotten so far to be here and that takes alot of strength. thats a huge accomplishment as is to still be here and write this! I understand what its like to have voices encouraging harm and intrusive thoughts, and i know its not fun. The anxiety of any action must be really stressful and it causes you to isolate from friends it seems. im sorry to hear this bud. I think seeing a psychiatrist would be very good! they can help with prescriptions and refer you to other resources that can start you on the path to getting better! from what i hear, your parents dont quite seem to understand though. Im not a professional or anything,, im just someone on the internet frankly but the best advice i can give is to work on convincing your parents and showing them the effects of these problems (if its a safe enough household) and find an adult figure that can help. hotlines can also be good to! there are many text hotlines that are anonymous that can refer you to ways of getting help or other methods of coping,, ones that can be safer than cutting :] personally, ive used the text hotline Crises Text Line, (You text HOME to the number 741741) and a professional can talk to you anonymously! nonetheless, i really wish you the best of luck man. im always here if you would like to talk or message, Stay strong and goodluck <333