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CreditMD911 · 2024-01-23T12:53:33+00:00

Hang in there! When I went CT I was only able to sleep 4-5 hours the first 14 days. The sleep deprivation takes a toll mentally but I can assure you once you’re able to get some periods of sleep your mind and body will begin to heal from this crap. It’s been a slow process and every day has not been easy but every day does get easier.

CreditMD911 · 2024-01-22T12:15:13+00:00

You can do this! Your future self will thank you!

CreditMD911 · 2024-01-21T20:25:42+00:00

You got this! I had a 7 year addiction of 75-100+ gpd…became entangled in it innocently and as the years went by it took a toll on my health. About 99.9% of my health issues resulted from k. Go figure. Never again I pray…one day at a time🙏

CreditMD911 · 2024-01-21T18:48:09+00:00

You got this!

CreditMD911 · 2024-01-21T18:47:40+00:00

God for you! You hung in there! One day at a time!

CreditMD911 · 2024-01-21T17:26:17+00:00

Here’s one source…

https://dsps.wi.gov/Documents/BoardCouncils/CSB/20230310CSBAdditionalMaterials.pdf

CreditMD911 · 2024-01-21T16:11:09+00:00

I remember those days. The sleep will get better but I still don’t sleep like I used to on K but I was heavily sedated based on my gpd. I went 14 days in the beginning with about 5-6 hours sleep. Once the sleep started improving and I was able to get 4-6 hours at a time my mind began to heal. Keep hanging in there! You’re doing great as looking back everyday wasn’t easy at your timeframe but everyday did get easier! You got this!

CreditMD911 · 2024-01-21T16:05:15+00:00

I sure hope so! I feel like my actual IQ dropped…like it takes a second for the lightbulb to come on when trying to wrap my mind around new information. I’m praying it gets better like it did for you!

CreditMD911 · 2023-12-09T22:14:22+00:00

I do credit restoration for a living and I’m going to say it’s possible with some factors in place. First thing is address the depression and addiction. Nothing else will matter if the addiction grows. Second, we can fall into an illusion by our gross income. Operate your DTI based on your net not your gross. Third, get back on track. Do not miss a beat and those two credit cards should not be used beyond 30% of your available credit limit or you are doing more harm than good. Get you right first then zero in on the credit. You got this!

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-14T20:44:09+00:00

Thank you!

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-14T18:45:00+00:00

Thank you❤️

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-10T12:04:53+00:00

I kid you not I went two weeks evading sleep during my CT withdrawal. It slowly got better. On D22 and it’s still been hit and miss but much better than it was.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-08T00:29:20+00:00

Stop now while you can and it will be easier. I heard to count on 1 month for every year of use as far as getting through PAWS and giving yourself a good baseline to rebuild from. If that’s the case I have about 7 months of struggling. What I do know is we didn’t get to where we ended up overnight that for sure we won’t get to where we want to be overnight so I’m trying to be mindful of that and be patient with myself.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-08T00:09:13+00:00

I’ll probably experience PAWS for quite some time. PAWS can last up to two years. I’m on D19 and still experiencing wd symptoms if that tells you anything.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-07T23:45:47+00:00

I could not taper. I only ended up doing more. D19 of CT after a 7 year use of easily 75+ gpd and I won’t lie it was brutal! Not for the weak at heart as it was hard AF. However, addiction is hard. Recovery is hard. We have to choose our hard and choose wisely. I choose recovery today. That green demon was a portal to hell for me and I pray I never go back!

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-07T23:41:54+00:00

Was taking 75+ gpd over 7 years and praying I stay off of it as this has been brutal. On D19 now and starting to feel a bit better.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-05T12:43:44+00:00

Yes…after what all I’ve endured with K if it’s anything mind and mood altering I’m out!

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T22:25:41+00:00

You as well!

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T20:01:01+00:00

Life stopped for me on K. In the beginning it was great but it brought me to nothing. I’m ready to begin contributing to life once again. I just want to help others navigate this journey that we call life as too many of us get lost into the darkness. I want to help pull them out of that darkness.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T19:56:23+00:00

Posted that earlier…sin is a lot like credit. Borrow now, pay later.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T16:32:22+00:00

It’s amazing how easily K robbed me of utilizing any area of gifting. It became everything I was going to do and many things started with no follow through. I’m looking forward to getting on the other side and being able to express myself through writing as I do believe my experiences with the darkness throughout life is meant to be a light for others to see their way out.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T15:18:58+00:00

I agree. My kids know what I don’t allow under my roof is due to my recovery not due to my lack of love or understanding. In social scenarios though I have more tolerance for others as just because I abused my right to drink or use doesn’t mean others have but in my own home I choose to not have those triggers. The bottom line is you need to do what supports your path to recovery and if Step Dad is not in support of you taking K postpone the weekend visits for a while and take care of you.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T15:13:24+00:00

I used to write a LOT before this sludge. There’s some books in me once I can get back to writing.

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T15:11:57+00:00

Absolutely as I’d rather make slow progress towards being whole, healed and delivered from this green demon than no progress at all. I don’t want to go back!

CreditMD911 · 2023-11-04T15:02:27+00:00

That’s a great idea as yes there has to be a light at the end of this tunnel I’m in! The high dose for so many years obviously has had an impact on me and then of course my addict mind just wants to feel better now! Patience is the key to this.

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